sadforldr7

56 days.. should be happier. Seeking a counselor locally and hope to have an appointment soon to discuss the horrendous anxiety.

Despite good blood tests, still scared of long term health consequences..since i didn't get a CT scan or ultrasound I don't truly know the state of things. Worried that it is truly not going to be good.

Anxious, alone, nightmares every night of dying.

Just feel overwhelming sad...was hoping this would lift as my days equate to 8 weeks, but I'm really struggling.

Scared for my life.

least

If your blood tests came back good, I think you are 'borrowing trouble'. Please don't let yourself worry so much. It won't help and will make you feel worse. Be good to yourself and stay sober and I think it will all be ok.

Anna

56 days of sobriety is great!

I had enormous anxiety about health issues in early recovery, too. Having no way to numb my feelings and having to deal with life was really a struggle. I started meditating, I began walking miles every day and I got involved in volunteering in my community. It wasn't a quick fix, but those things helped me to cope and to begin to feel better about things. I think that your plan to talk to a counsellor is great idea and I'm sure it will help.

HeadEast

56 days is awesome.

sadforldr7

Thanks Anna and least. Being alone through this has made this worse than ever. I'm in a pretty desolate part of the US and no friends or family nearby.

Feel like I'm defective as I can't seem to experience what others are in early recovery. Just fear and wake up every day hoping to feel better and not fall over dead...waiting for there to be less anxious physiological and emotional/mental symptoms. Every morning I wake up to it.

sadforldr7

Thanks...all I can do is wake up and keep going.

fini

well yes, but HOW you keep going can be many different ways. what might happen if you started walking, or meditating, or baking, or volunteering, or exercising, or ......any of the other activities that so many here on SR have mentioned?
at the very least it would take your sole focus off your fear for a bit.

sadforldr7

Thanks fini, yes...I volunteer and exercise quite a bit.

I'll try meditation...can't do much walking as the temps are now in negatives in this part of country, northern tier.

I try to read every night too, I have videos on AA on you tube as well.

cantsleep123

Sounds like what I have, hypochondria. You should definitely seek therapy.

Dee74

I hope seeing your Dr will hope allay most of your fear sadforldr7...that and a little time.

I felt sure I was going to drop dead any second, but in fact my medical prognosis was much better than I feared.

I reckon it will turn out that way for you too

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least

Try practicing gratitude every day. Seriously. Find at least one thing you are grateful for. Doesn't have to be big or important, just something or someone you are thankful for.

Here's a good article about gratitude and how it can make you happier.

https://www.nytimes.com/2015/11/22/o...pier.html?_r=0

When I started practicing gratitude in earnest, it was hard cause I was newly sober, worried, and afraid. It was hard to find anything to be grateful for cause I was so depressed. But after a while, I found lots of things to be grateful for: food, my dog and cats, my family, my friends, the fact that the sun was shining... It can be anything. Try it. What have you got to lose but your misery?

Speaking to a therapist is a great idea. I used to have weekly sessions with a wonderful counselor and it was a huge help.

joe801

I hate to hear you're still feeling this way.

I wish you well with your appointment with the counselor.