whispers
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whispers
Hi - I've been struggling for a while. Finally made over a month. Not counting days - just going by the one day at a time concept. Today I am struggling with the old whispers of what's the point you're 63, barely employed, live way out in the country. Beast talk.
I'm not going to drink because I know where it will take me and my kids don't deserve the old dying drunk woman again. Just came here to share and remind myself that I am not alone. These whispers today have been the strongest since stopping. Thank goodness you are here!
I'm not going to drink because I know where it will take me and my kids don't deserve the old dying drunk woman again. Just came here to share and remind myself that I am not alone. These whispers today have been the strongest since stopping. Thank goodness you are here!
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Awake, you are certainly not alone here on SR, plus you've got your kids in real life. I'd rephrase that lying Beast talk...you're only 63 and you live way out in the country, which most city dwellers would love.
The AV always lies, always, I know. I nearly didn't make it back after drinking this year, I was sucked in by the lies. You can do this, stay strong, you're only 63, the POTUS is 73, and campaigning for re-election.....the ruling Queen of the UK is 93...so you're really young in comparison.
The AV always lies, always, I know. I nearly didn't make it back after drinking this year, I was sucked in by the lies. You can do this, stay strong, you're only 63, the POTUS is 73, and campaigning for re-election.....the ruling Queen of the UK is 93...so you're really young in comparison.
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Im going to be 56 in 10 days.
Fact is, it doent matter because Im convinced alcohol wouldnt kill me, just make completely insane until I finally killed myself to end the misery.
I'll sit here and watch paint dry before I jackass out to buy any more alcohol.
Three months ago I was in so much mental anguish I finally understood that one more wasnt going to help me.
Fact is, it doent matter because Im convinced alcohol wouldnt kill me, just make completely insane until I finally killed myself to end the misery.
I'll sit here and watch paint dry before I jackass out to buy any more alcohol.
Three months ago I was in so much mental anguish I finally understood that one more wasnt going to help me.
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Congratulations on a month Awake61 that's wonderful. It's hard to begin with but it does get easier and once you don't have to put all your effort into not drinking you can look at improving other aspects of your life.
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The voices on here have my best interest in mind. The voices in my head, not so much. Keeping that in mind, I pay attention to what I hear on this site because I can learn much from it. As to what I hear from my head, not so much.
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Originally Posted by Tatsy 
Awake, you are certainly not alone here on SR, plus you've got your kids in real life. I'd rephrase that lying Beast talk...you're only 63 and you live way out in the country, which most city dwellers would love.
The AV always lies, always, I know. I nearly didn't make it back after drinking this year, I was sucked in by the lies. You can do this, stay strong, you're only 63, the POTUS is 73, and campaigning for re-election.....the ruling Queen of the UK is 93...so you're really young in comparison.
The AV always lies, always, I know. I nearly didn't make it back after drinking this year, I was sucked in by the lies. You can do this, stay strong, you're only 63, the POTUS is 73, and campaigning for re-election.....the ruling Queen of the UK is 93...so you're really young in comparison.
You deserve to be happy/healthy and Sober.
I am 49 and people that are older than me getting Sober are such
power of examples. There is a lot of life left and you deserve to
be alert, feeling well and apart of it all. I was such a shell of a person this summer because of booze. It feels nice to be able to be a part of life. If I want to be.
Keep going. It feels empowering taking care of ourselves.
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I can let you know first hand what drinking can take away from a person.
Mostly the self. It's gone, demolished, destroyed and horrendous!
What sobriety brings is peace of mind, serenity, peace and joy. It brings friends who will be there for you no matter what you go through and those who truly understand us. It can bring us nice material things, too.
We sometimes have to struggle to get there, but I know that by making it one day to the next; by creating a design for living and a plan with goals and objectives to meet....learning to be sober and to live sober, well, it can happen to you, too. Keep moving forward!
I'm working on my ninth year of sobriety and it's amazing (and true!). Wow, I never thought I could get sober for one day. Thanks to others who have walked in sobriety.
Keep moving forward, you are worth it!!!!!!!!! (go eat something decadent!)
Mostly the self. It's gone, demolished, destroyed and horrendous!
What sobriety brings is peace of mind, serenity, peace and joy. It brings friends who will be there for you no matter what you go through and those who truly understand us. It can bring us nice material things, too.
We sometimes have to struggle to get there, but I know that by making it one day to the next; by creating a design for living and a plan with goals and objectives to meet....learning to be sober and to live sober, well, it can happen to you, too. Keep moving forward!
I'm working on my ninth year of sobriety and it's amazing (and true!). Wow, I never thought I could get sober for one day. Thanks to others who have walked in sobriety.
Keep moving forward, you are worth it!!!!!!!!! (go eat something decadent!)
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