A week ago today I was drinking sending stupid texts and causing drama. Today without that poison in my system I wouldn’t dream of doing those things. How can I go from a normal human to crazy person with no control over mind and behaviour when I have drank??? It’s insane to think that this is something Iv done lots of times over the years. Never realising the simple truth that I cannot drink without causing damage to my life and emotions. Feel ok today just it’s the realisation of how different I get when alcohol Lois in my system. Today wouldn’t dream of doing those things but scary thought is that a couple glasses and that crazy person would be around again. What a nightmare alcohol is

Tomis I so am had enough. Head east yes I do that also then wok up in morning deleting like mad feeling shame uchhhh so awful that feeling