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Join Date: Jul 2019
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Hi Chris, glad you surrendered on this last run.
Goes nowhere.
I seem to have come to the place where my brain literally associates alcohol with misery after many many HORRIBLE "runs".
You can and will get to that place. Every time it leads to misery youll subconciously register the fact that its going no where else BUT to more misery.
Weve crossed that line. No more fun with that garbage, not that it ever was.
Dont beat yourself up, heal, and start on creating a LIFE.
Goes nowhere.
I seem to have come to the place where my brain literally associates alcohol with misery after many many HORRIBLE "runs".
You can and will get to that place. Every time it leads to misery youll subconciously register the fact that its going no where else BUT to more misery.
Weve crossed that line. No more fun with that garbage, not that it ever was.
Dont beat yourself up, heal, and start on creating a LIFE.
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Location: Boston MA
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Hi Chris,
Congrats on day 2. You will physically and emotionally feel better one day at a time. You are not alone. I have numerous awful consequences from my last bender. I am 18 days sober and feel much better. I am able to think clearly and execute a plan to have a better life.
I look forward to reading about your Sober journey
Congrats on day 2. You will physically and emotionally feel better one day at a time. You are not alone. I have numerous awful consequences from my last bender. I am 18 days sober and feel much better. I am able to think clearly and execute a plan to have a better life.
I look forward to reading about your Sober journey
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We need you too, Chris - we learn from each other. I'm so glad you posted.
Congratulations on Day 2. Those early ones are rough - but you are on your way to a better life. You will heal and rise above the misery.
Congratulations on Day 2. Those early ones are rough - but you are on your way to a better life. You will heal and rise above the misery.
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The worst part is the shame and remorse.
Second worst part is the insomnia and sense of impending doom (doom feeling mostly comes when I'm alone).
Third worst part is the lack of appetite and sometimes nausea. Luckily the nausea hasn't been terrible this time.
Second worst part is the insomnia and sense of impending doom (doom feeling mostly comes when I'm alone).
Third worst part is the lack of appetite and sometimes nausea. Luckily the nausea hasn't been terrible this time.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
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Originally Posted by ThatWasTheOldMe 
The worst part is the shame and remorse.
Second worst part is the insomnia and sense of impending doom (doom feeling mostly comes when I'm alone).
Third worst part is the lack of appetite and sometimes nausea. Luckily the nausea hasn't been terrible this time.
Second worst part is the insomnia and sense of impending doom (doom feeling mostly comes when I'm alone).
Third worst part is the lack of appetite and sometimes nausea. Luckily the nausea hasn't been terrible this time.
The early part can be rough, but it gets better the longer you stay sober. Member
Join Date: Jun 2017
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Hi Chris, glad you are here. I need you as well. I need the newcomers, the old timers, and everyone in-between. Shares help me on my path of self-discovery when I listen to what is behind the share with my heart and not just hear the words. Where I have been. What I did to change.What it is like now. My hope for the future. I need it all. Thank you. There is strength in numbers.
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: San Diego
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Originally Posted by ThatWasTheOldMe
The worst part is the shame and remorse.
Second worst part is the insomnia and sense of impending doom (doom feeling mostly comes when I'm alone).
Third worst part is the lack of appetite and sometimes nausea. Luckily the nausea hasn't been terrible this time.
Second worst part is the insomnia and sense of impending doom (doom feeling mostly comes when I'm alone).
Third worst part is the lack of appetite and sometimes nausea. Luckily the nausea hasn't been terrible this time.
I used to feel what you described above all the time. I really do get how you feel right now. It reminds me of me.
Since I have worked a program of recovery, I no longer feel shame, remorse, or a sense of impending doom.
The physical symptoms usually go away too after we have been sober a for awhile.
Sobriety has been the greatest thing in my life, though it didn’t just “happen”, I had to do some work and do some things differently.
Stick around, there are a whole lot of people here who can help you in your early days of sobriety.
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Join Date: Oct 2019
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Hey Chris sounds like you are struggling I feel for you man. There is hope. For me trying to get over the guilt of a relapse, or the guilt of having so much less time than I did before was what took me back out. How badly do you want sobriety this time?
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