Go Sober for October 2019.....and beyond
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Go Sober for October 2019.....and beyond
All of the limits have been passed and then some.
All of the bottoms have been exhausted and then some more scrapping and digging.
The coffin has been laid to rest and yet there was further scratchings on the lid.
What an unnecessary burden to continue this folly.
I just no longer drink.
All of the bottoms have been exhausted and then some more scrapping and digging.
The coffin has been laid to rest and yet there was further scratchings on the lid.
What an unnecessary burden to continue this folly.
I just no longer drink.
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True, been a little lazy and complacent.
Did manage to make and keep a doc's appointment last week after four or so failed attempts.
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A Stoic needs adversity to overcome is one way of looking at it.
Did manage to make and keep a doc's appointment last week after four or so failed attempts.
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A Stoic needs adversity to overcome is one way of looking at it.
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First week of Sober October under the belt. A little adversity last night when I had practically almost decided to drink later on during the ufc. The lesson was that it was during a period of mental exhaustion and frustration. Finish of a six day work week and having to deal with the landlord's shenanigans. I chalked that down to a puzzle to solve and solved it.
Then mindfulness recognized the drinking later during the ufc would be a decision born from an exhausted and frustrated mind and given that I needed to catch up on sleep the chances of a blackout from a psychological and physiological perspective was quite high.
All bets were off.
To hell with the ufc
Default to self care: I needed sleep.
who cares about prelims.
I woke from a blissful sleep refreshed just one fight into the main card.
Food. Water. Coffee.
Happy to be rested and in own skin.
Lizard skin fancy dress not coming out tonight.
The last Stylebender won to become new middleweight champion.
No hangover.
Then mindfulness recognized the drinking later during the ufc would be a decision born from an exhausted and frustrated mind and given that I needed to catch up on sleep the chances of a blackout from a psychological and physiological perspective was quite high.
All bets were off.
To hell with the ufc
Default to self care: I needed sleep.
who cares about prelims.
I woke from a blissful sleep refreshed just one fight into the main card.
Food. Water. Coffee.
Happy to be rested and in own skin.
Lizard skin fancy dress not coming out tonight.
The last Stylebender won to become new middleweight champion.
No hangover.
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Originally Posted by Epictetus 
“He who laughs at himself never runs out of things to laugh at.”
― Epictetus
― Epictetus
Dee, I really like this.
“Waste no more time arguing what a good man should be. Be One.” – Marcus Aurelius
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Waiting
The urges came nightly each night of the last week. At the end of the work day commute, like gentle rain lapping down and fireflies at the window.
Usually the rain stopped after eating dinner. According to the watching eye the rain only seems to fall in moments of exhaustion and frustration. It was a long commute from the city. There were no conversations of the mind. Only a memo stating HARM REDUCTION observation: now is not a good time.
If it wasn't for HARM REDUCTION telegrams that I had received I wouldn't be partaking in sober October and beyond.
Death is not a deterrent. Detached or irrelevant. It really doesn't matter.
Sure desire is still there. I cannot say that I want one thing more than i want another.
Still. Delayed gratification. Sacrifice. A better tomorrow.
Usually the rain stopped after eating dinner. According to the watching eye the rain only seems to fall in moments of exhaustion and frustration. It was a long commute from the city. There were no conversations of the mind. Only a memo stating HARM REDUCTION observation: now is not a good time.
If it wasn't for HARM REDUCTION telegrams that I had received I wouldn't be partaking in sober October and beyond.
Death is not a deterrent. Detached or irrelevant. It really doesn't matter.
Sure desire is still there. I cannot say that I want one thing more than i want another.
Still. Delayed gratification. Sacrifice. A better tomorrow.
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Big balls
“You don’t develop courage by being happy in your relationships everyday. You develop it by surviving difficult times and challenging adversity.”
~ Epicurus
Hectic and challenging week ahead. Bring it!!
Forged in FIRE!!
~ Epicurus
Hectic and challenging week ahead. Bring it!!
Forged in FIRE!!
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JP: "be the reliable person at your father's funeral"
Another hectic week, now well needed rest and recuperation needed at weekend. Back and forth to hospital this week and working two jobs. Hospital is not for me, surgery for her, which called for a lot support and all that entails from me. No complaints. It's an opportunity to show strength of character and steel although Thursday I was at mental and physical limit. Alcohol? For what. Need to be fresh every day and that's it.
Default to self care: Eat well, rest well, be kind to self, take care of responsibilities without complaint. Again the desire to be fresh and energetic when Monday rolls back around is strong. A lot to set right. A lot to fix and put back on track. Ligament is healing. Hit weights with new program next week.
The only way is through. Every perceived negative situation is an opportunity.
“How unlucky I am that this should happen to me. But not at all. Perhaps, say how lucky I am that I am not broken by what has happened, and I am not afraid of what is about to happen. For the same blow might have stricken anyone, but not many would have absorbed it without capitulation and complaint.”
― Marcus Aurelius
Default to self care: Eat well, rest well, be kind to self, take care of responsibilities without complaint. Again the desire to be fresh and energetic when Monday rolls back around is strong. A lot to set right. A lot to fix and put back on track. Ligament is healing. Hit weights with new program next week.
The only way is through. Every perceived negative situation is an opportunity.
“How unlucky I am that this should happen to me. But not at all. Perhaps, say how lucky I am that I am not broken by what has happened, and I am not afraid of what is about to happen. For the same blow might have stricken anyone, but not many would have absorbed it without capitulation and complaint.”
― Marcus Aurelius
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Epictetus! Wonderful and inspiring posts. Congratulations, you are doing so well.
I am with you 'I just no longer drink' - it is a roller coaster at times but what an adventure too! I like your self-care defaults. My immediate self-care default is to get my butt to bed so I can be fresh for my spin class tomorrow morning.
I am with you 'I just no longer drink' - it is a roller coaster at times but what an adventure too! I like your self-care defaults. My immediate self-care default is to get my butt to bed so I can be fresh for my spin class tomorrow morning.
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Today is a good day
on the home straight now of the sober October goal. Possible reflections and on to the next phase.
Spoke to a medical professional yesterday (mental health). The appointment went really well. Felt listened to for the first time in such a long time. She asked some good questions; the whys to the reasons (of root causes). Answered the questions to myself later, while reflecting and discovered the perceived blockades where but clouds of smoke that just had to be walked through.
She radiated good energy, listened and gave value. Which made me realize there are (somewhere ) elevated souls who will want the best for me and will give me value. However, there is a social code that must be adhered to: I must be an elevated soul who will want the best for them and I must give value too. The law of reciprocation.
Perhaps, I shall check out the aa club next month. The barriers and doubts don't really matter. The only question is: can I obtain value and can I give value. I reckon so.
Great news today too: Back on the road next week.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4UqMyldS7Q
Spoke to a medical professional yesterday (mental health). The appointment went really well. Felt listened to for the first time in such a long time. She asked some good questions; the whys to the reasons (of root causes). Answered the questions to myself later, while reflecting and discovered the perceived blockades where but clouds of smoke that just had to be walked through.
She radiated good energy, listened and gave value. Which made me realize there are (somewhere ) elevated souls who will want the best for me and will give me value. However, there is a social code that must be adhered to: I must be an elevated soul who will want the best for them and I must give value too. The law of reciprocation.
Perhaps, I shall check out the aa club next month. The barriers and doubts don't really matter. The only question is: can I obtain value and can I give value. I reckon so.
Great news today too: Back on the road next week.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4UqMyldS7Q
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Two birds one stone.
Originally Posted by Lucinda2
Epictetus! Wonderful and inspiring posts. Congratulations, you are doing so well.
I am with you 'I just no longer drink' - it is a roller coaster at times but what an adventure too! I like your self-care defaults. My immediate self-care default is to get my butt to bed so I can be fresh for my spin class tomorrow morning.
I am with you 'I just no longer drink' - it is a roller coaster at times but what an adventure too! I like your self-care defaults. My immediate self-care default is to get my butt to bed so I can be fresh for my spin class tomorrow morning.
Besides, nothing good happens after midnight.
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