I slipped off.
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I slipped off.
I need to start tomorrow afresh.
lesson learnt. Nothing too bad just more solid evidence how quickly **** falls downhill.
I was proud of everyday of hard work I put to get to a place I forgot existed. If I was to draw my thoughts regarding alcohol right it would be right out of a movie where someone is slipping down an icy cliff and swings the ice pick in.
It will be a bit of hard work to climb back up that edge but better than flat out down there.
Life was getting better.
I have to stop again.
lesson learnt. Nothing too bad just more solid evidence how quickly **** falls downhill.
I was proud of everyday of hard work I put to get to a place I forgot existed. If I was to draw my thoughts regarding alcohol right it would be right out of a movie where someone is slipping down an icy cliff and swings the ice pick in.
It will be a bit of hard work to climb back up that edge but better than flat out down there.
Life was getting better.
I have to stop again.
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I don't know.
First push through a few sober days.
Then not pretend to myself that a few beers one day will not mean ending up tightrope walking sobriety. Followed by a few more each day.
I don't want be where I am seeing how quickly this will go to that without all of my commitment to abstain.
First push through a few sober days.
Then not pretend to myself that a few beers one day will not mean ending up tightrope walking sobriety. Followed by a few more each day.
I don't want be where I am seeing how quickly this will go to that without all of my commitment to abstain.
'I don't know' is the usual answer and 'just getting through the first few days' features pretty heavily too
The reason why I bang on about plans so much is without one, you're leaving a lot up to chance - and that element of chance can sometimes mean the other side wins and we drink
think about a recovery action plan - and my advice is to start thinking today - it might seem a lot, but it's really not that much of an ask
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
The reason why I bang on about plans so much is without one, you're leaving a lot up to chance - and that element of chance can sometimes mean the other side wins and we drink
think about a recovery action plan - and my advice is to start thinking today - it might seem a lot, but it's really not that much of an ask
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
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'I don't know' is the usual answer and 'just getting through the first few days' features pretty heavily too
The reason why I bang on about plans so much is without one, you're leaving a lot up to chance - and that element of chance can sometimes mean the other side wins and we drink
think about a recovery action plan - and my advice is to start thinking today - it might seem a lot, but it's really not that much of an ask
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
The reason why I bang on about plans so much is without one, you're leaving a lot up to chance - and that element of chance can sometimes mean the other side wins and we drink
think about a recovery action plan - and my advice is to start thinking today - it might seem a lot, but it's really not that much of an ask
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
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What Dee said.
I am sorry you chose to drink. I use that verb for the same reason I always do - there is no such thing as a "slip"...and metaphors galore never got me sober.
Acceptance, then action.
We don't get infinite chances. Glad you get another and hope you make it a permanent life of sobriety.
I am sorry you chose to drink. I use that verb for the same reason I always do - there is no such thing as a "slip"...and metaphors galore never got me sober.
Acceptance, then action.
We don't get infinite chances. Glad you get another and hope you make it a permanent life of sobriety.
I agree with August. There are no slips, there was a whole string of things you told yourself right before you drank to make it okay.
Dissect it. Journal every thought you had in the two hours before you drank. Whatever you told yourself needs to be changed.
There is nothing, no one, no situation, party, friend, family squabble, event, broken car, disaster, trauma or problem that can make me drink. I no longer celebrate nor drown my sorrows with alcohol.
I made the decision to not put alcohol in my own mouth, no matter what.
Every single action and thought I entertain now has to back that up.
Dissect it. Journal every thought you had in the two hours before you drank. Whatever you told yourself needs to be changed.
There is nothing, no one, no situation, party, friend, family squabble, event, broken car, disaster, trauma or problem that can make me drink. I no longer celebrate nor drown my sorrows with alcohol.
I made the decision to not put alcohol in my own mouth, no matter what.
Every single action and thought I entertain now has to back that up.
I agree with figuring out what thought process started the relapse. And, I agree with the advice to change some things and/or add some things. I know from experience that, when you start over without some concrete change, things tend to end up the same. So, be kind to yourself, but make the change you need.
It fkin hurts to think all of my effort can be undone in a few days.
we are all exactly ONE bad decision away from taking the dive.
thus a good strong program that is built to defend against that bad decision is imperative.
in AA it's called maintaining a fit spiritual condition.
one could say we need to maintain a fit SOBER condition. stay in contact with our choice for sobriety, feed it, empower it, protect it. set ourselves up to be successfully sober every day.
we are all exactly ONE bad decision away from taking the dive.
thus a good strong program that is built to defend against that bad decision is imperative.
in AA it's called maintaining a fit spiritual condition.
one could say we need to maintain a fit SOBER condition. stay in contact with our choice for sobriety, feed it, empower it, protect it. set ourselves up to be successfully sober every day.
I agree with comments above. I don't believe in things like 'Messing up' 'Slipping' etc. Drinking is a choice and whenever I went overboard with alcohol consumption, it was always by choice.
The fact you mentioned pretending to yourself about a few beers being ok means you probably still glamorize the idea of drinking. That was one thing I had to stop when I was going through my moderation attempts early last year.
The fact you mentioned pretending to yourself about a few beers being ok means you probably still glamorize the idea of drinking. That was one thing I had to stop when I was going through my moderation attempts early last year.
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the lesson is I cannot let the kind of thoughts have value anymore. Given half a chance they take over.
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That is interesting, Finalcall. I too notice that it is when things have gone well or when I have just overcome a big hurdle that the AV is at its loudest. So now I am prepared for that and it doesn't catch me unawares so much. It sounds like you will be prepared for that going forward too.
Your posts last year effected me and I related to much of what you said. I hope that you can find the strength to realize you have to quit for good now.
uh ja, reward for and break from things going well.
makes no sense in soberland, but i sure did the same when looking for stellar reasons to drink
it’s great to see you airing out this kind of thinking.
makes no sense in soberland, but i sure did the same when looking for stellar reasons to drink
it’s great to see you airing out this kind of thinking.
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Yes I agree. I never had a "slip", or a "blip", or hit a "speed bump".....I made a conscious, deliberate decision to drink.
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