Still fighting the fight.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: London
Posts: 259
Still fighting the fight.
Hey guys.
I'm back again and am just about to put my head on the pillow and say goodnight to day 5.
Been working all day and also working tomorrow. In fact today was a start of a 7 day straight shift pattern.
But in contrast to last weekend when I was asleep in an alley way, then being woken up by police on a park bench because I was threatening people with violence and screaming obscenities in the street pretty much in my own neighbourhood. Then I'll stick to being at work where I can stay out of trouble.
I am very grateful that I have managed to stay stopped since then. Thank you so much for getting me through these 5 days guys. You've all been beyond amazing with your lovely comments.
The thing is, is that i feel very much that I had to experience this last relapse. My eyes seem to opened to the fact that its OVER!! Alcohol is NOT an option for this alcoholic addict. I'm 38 in a few months and sure as hell do not want to ruin anymore of my years to this horrendous illness. I thank Jesus (my HP) for working in mysterious ways to guide me through the storm to gently place me onto the right path.
The thought of going back out there literally scares me beyond words.
I'm staying here with you lovely lot. The winners!
love you all my sober friends.
RJ x
I'm back again and am just about to put my head on the pillow and say goodnight to day 5.
Been working all day and also working tomorrow. In fact today was a start of a 7 day straight shift pattern.
But in contrast to last weekend when I was asleep in an alley way, then being woken up by police on a park bench because I was threatening people with violence and screaming obscenities in the street pretty much in my own neighbourhood. Then I'll stick to being at work where I can stay out of trouble.
I am very grateful that I have managed to stay stopped since then. Thank you so much for getting me through these 5 days guys. You've all been beyond amazing with your lovely comments.
The thing is, is that i feel very much that I had to experience this last relapse. My eyes seem to opened to the fact that its OVER!! Alcohol is NOT an option for this alcoholic addict. I'm 38 in a few months and sure as hell do not want to ruin anymore of my years to this horrendous illness. I thank Jesus (my HP) for working in mysterious ways to guide me through the storm to gently place me onto the right path.
The thought of going back out there literally scares me beyond words.
I'm staying here with you lovely lot. The winners!
love you all my sober friends.
RJ x
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: London
Posts: 259
Originally Posted by Ringside 
I had to stop fighting and admit that drinking kicked my ass every time. Walking away from that fight didn’t come naturally but it sure was liberating!
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
