One month
One month
I cannot believe that I have come this far, but am so pleased that I have. Previously, the thought of doing just one AF day seemed totally impossible. I was concerned that I would not be able to cope with the level of agitation I would feel in the evening (when I drank home alone), that I would not be able to relax in the evening, that I would not be able to focus on a book, a TV programme, or reading online material about my interests (gardening an cooking); and that my sleep would become worse than it already was.
Even after the first day, I noticed how much calmer I felt and as the month has gone on, how much inner peace I have found, and how much better I am now sleeping. I actually look forward to my evenings now with alcohol.
I am also losing some of my ‘gin belly’, and my resting heart rate (I wear a FitBit) has come down 10 BPM.
I drank for 14.5 years, and prior to that I had been AF until a ‘bullying’ so-called friend (who I no longer see) forced a drink on me one Christmas. All through my drinking, I have longed to get back the feeling of contentment I had when I didn’t drink. I am so, so grateful that that feeling has now returned.
It has been my birthday during this past month and someone bought me a bottle of Cava for it (I used to love Cava). I gave it to another friend the next day. I have also been out for a meal, where I drank mineral water.
Just coming here to SR, even if I am just reading posts, has been really, really helpful. Makes me realise that I am not alone.
Thank you for helping me get so far.
Even after the first day, I noticed how much calmer I felt and as the month has gone on, how much inner peace I have found, and how much better I am now sleeping. I actually look forward to my evenings now with alcohol.
I am also losing some of my ‘gin belly’, and my resting heart rate (I wear a FitBit) has come down 10 BPM.
I drank for 14.5 years, and prior to that I had been AF until a ‘bullying’ so-called friend (who I no longer see) forced a drink on me one Christmas. All through my drinking, I have longed to get back the feeling of contentment I had when I didn’t drink. I am so, so grateful that that feeling has now returned.
It has been my birthday during this past month and someone bought me a bottle of Cava for it (I used to love Cava). I gave it to another friend the next day. I have also been out for a meal, where I drank mineral water.
Just coming here to SR, even if I am just reading posts, has been really, really helpful. Makes me realise that I am not alone.
Thank you for helping me get so far.
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