So....on my way home and got a note from AH letting me know he purchased and drank a pint. Told me he feels terrible about himself and has no excuse. He said he did not want me to come home and get upset. Said he is going to meeting at 715 and plans to come clean to his sponsor after the meeting. He said his intention was not to upset me but trying to be accountable and honest. He has never told the truth before this. Not really the accountability i wanted (like accountability for where you are to build trust is what i was meaning). I can’t be mad because i realize he is sick and this is not what he wants. I am not going to react badly because he is home and safe and not hurting anyone but himself. I am going to keep my side of the street clean and let him manage this with the help of aa and his sponsor. I pray for him that he can get it together. And i will still have my plan to move on if he can’t. It is all i can do. I love him and want him to beat this demon but my first priority needs to be my life and my sanity.

Trailmix plan is still in place he fully understands I won’t stay if he continues. No change in that. The meeting is 715 am. He is home sleeping.

Addiction does suck. And i know it is only a day or two, but i do not see any difference in anything. Same behaviors. Lying. Making it like i am the crazy one. Doing things that he knows i will not like. Already not doing anything he says. I already know i will end up giving notice and moving out. It is just sickening.

Thanks to u both ❤️

Dandylion thank you. We have already agreed to do an agreement with a friend who is a lawyer. I am not really worries about that. We do not own property jointly and we have no kids together (they are his).

Hawkeye. Thank you. I do have hope but that is not my plan. I want to be pleasantly surprised but i am a realist.

so very true!