Sad,lonely, hurt
Sad,lonely, hurt
Just need some help making it through the night.
My last drink was 10 days ago but I swallowed about 60 klonopin over a four day period out of utter despair.
Any kind words would be appreciated
My last drink was 10 days ago but I swallowed about 60 klonopin over a four day period out of utter despair.
Any kind words would be appreciated
I am truly sorry that you feeling these things, I know it isn't nice. Are they coming up because now you 10 days sober and alcohol isn't hiding them anymore? The only way that we can succeed in sobriety is to learn to face these emotions and put them in a place they belong.
Being an addict hasn't worked for us so far and swapping one addiction for another isn't going to work either.. Please don't OD on those benzos, I'm no expert but 60 in a few days sounds like a lot..
Being an addict hasn't worked for us so far and swapping one addiction for another isn't going to work either.. Please don't OD on those benzos, I'm no expert but 60 in a few days sounds like a lot..
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I am glad to learn that you have an appointment with the doctor, Shifthappens.
Internet forums are great but sometimes we need more than an internet forum can give on its own. I took some counselling for a while when I was having a tough time through my divorce some years ago. I was referred to a counsellor attached to my doctor's clinic.
I don't know whereabouts you are in the world but perhaps your doctor can offer you similar?
Thanks for checking in. It is good to know that you have made that appointment.
Internet forums are great but sometimes we need more than an internet forum can give on its own. I took some counselling for a while when I was having a tough time through my divorce some years ago. I was referred to a counsellor attached to my doctor's clinic.
I don't know whereabouts you are in the world but perhaps your doctor can offer you similar?
Thanks for checking in. It is good to know that you have made that appointment.
Congratulations on 10 days shift, that is a HUGE achievement. I know it's hard right now but you will be so proud of yourself if you can keep it going.
I know others have already made the point but I had to Google Klonopin and the potential side effects are frightening too. Do be careful.
I know others have already made the point but I had to Google Klonopin and the potential side effects are frightening too. Do be careful.
Sounds like me. I went hard at the Klonnies when my anxiety was going nuts at the end of my drinking. You need to start weening off those bad boys. I would try to last all day trying to take none. Towards the end of the day near bedtime I was still having to take one or two. Now I don’t take any, or very rarely and as prescribed. You can get there man. And 15 a day is too much. After about 4-5 of them the benefit just isn’t there based on the risk.
Shift, I'm sorry that you feel so lost and alone. It's good that you have an appointment with your doctor coming up. Maybe you could consider trying to get in to see the dr sooner to talk about you depression?
Hello Shift.
Can you get to an AA meeting? Screw the message, screw the AA part of it, don't share, don't even listen if you don't want to.
Just go have some coffee and be safe around some people who aren't drinking or drugging. If you feel like finding someone to strike up a conversation, fine, if not, fine.
Maybe take the coffee pot around the room and fill everybody's cup for them.
If I lived near you I'd go with you.
Can you get to an AA meeting? Screw the message, screw the AA part of it, don't share, don't even listen if you don't want to.
Just go have some coffee and be safe around some people who aren't drinking or drugging. If you feel like finding someone to strike up a conversation, fine, if not, fine.
Maybe take the coffee pot around the room and fill everybody's cup for them.
If I lived near you I'd go with you.
It's not helping you and will only hurt you. You are doing great by the way with your 10 days!
I'm sorry you are feeling so sad and lonely. Well no need to feel lonely, look at the great group of people you have come across here at SR.
Someone is usually around most of the time so keep posting. You say you are sad, depressed. What's going on with you, is it anything you can talk about?
As for the Doctor, that's far too long to wait. I would give them a call and tell them you need an urgent appointment. Maybe just show up at the office and they might be able to fit you in?
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Hello Shift,
10 days is great but it's early days and things will get better!
I liked the following post of yours on another thread from a couple of days ago:
I would heed your own advice.
Benzos are a lifeline for many of us, if used responsibly and as prescribed. 60 klonopin over 4 days is not good and I I think they could have ultimately made you feel sadder that you were previously.
Try and ride things out naturally and use any medicines you have only as prescribed.
Hang on in there and good luck to you.
10 days is great but it's early days and things will get better!
I liked the following post of yours on another thread from a couple of days ago:
I had to log in for this one.
Benzos are NOT alcohol in pill form.
They do hit some of the same receptors making an alcohol detox more comfortable.
They are also the only thing Im aware of that will stop a full blown panic attack once its in full swing.
Annas suggestions are awesome and I try to practice them.
However those prone to attacks need to be vigilant about their self care, environment etc.
The thing about benzos is they work. Very well. But if you take them away your body has a rebound effect.
I liken it to jose conseco who took so many steroids during his playing years his body literally lost its ability to produce them on its own.
If you need them, take them but ONLY under a doctors supervision.
Benzos are NOT alcohol in pill form.
They do hit some of the same receptors making an alcohol detox more comfortable.
They are also the only thing Im aware of that will stop a full blown panic attack once its in full swing.
Annas suggestions are awesome and I try to practice them.
However those prone to attacks need to be vigilant about their self care, environment etc.
The thing about benzos is they work. Very well. But if you take them away your body has a rebound effect.
I liken it to jose conseco who took so many steroids during his playing years his body literally lost its ability to produce them on its own.
If you need them, take them but ONLY under a doctors supervision.
Benzos are a lifeline for many of us, if used responsibly and as prescribed. 60 klonopin over 4 days is not good and I I think they could have ultimately made you feel sadder that you were previously.
Try and ride things out naturally and use any medicines you have only as prescribed.
Hang on in there and good luck to you.
John honestly Ì think I was just tired of the fight.
Im tired of the money issues, the never ending battle, the doctors appointments, the lack of anything joyful.
I honestly wanted to just be unconcious and not worry anymore. I just wanted to sleep and have some peace.
A friend of mine from out of state who belongs to AA read me the riot act about "just wanting to stay home and get HIGH all day".
Im done explaining to people about my agoraphobia, lack of confidence, etc.
I dont "get high".
Anything I do/did was to calm down.
Its very hurtful
Im tired of the money issues, the never ending battle, the doctors appointments, the lack of anything joyful.
I honestly wanted to just be unconcious and not worry anymore. I just wanted to sleep and have some peace.
A friend of mine from out of state who belongs to AA read me the riot act about "just wanting to stay home and get HIGH all day".
Im done explaining to people about my agoraphobia, lack of confidence, etc.
I dont "get high".
Anything I do/did was to calm down.
Its very hurtful
John honestly Ì think I was just tired of the fight.
Im tired of the money issues, the never ending battle, the doctors appointments, the lack of anything joyful.
I honestly wanted to just be unconcious and not worry anymore. I just wanted to sleep and have some peace.
A friend of mine from out of state who belongs to AA read me the riot act about "just wanting to stay home and get HIGH all day".
Im done explaining to people about my agoraphobia, lack of confidence, etc.
I dont "get high".
Anything I do/did was to calm down.
Its very hurtful
Im tired of the money issues, the never ending battle, the doctors appointments, the lack of anything joyful.
I honestly wanted to just be unconcious and not worry anymore. I just wanted to sleep and have some peace.
A friend of mine from out of state who belongs to AA read me the riot act about "just wanting to stay home and get HIGH all day".
Im done explaining to people about my agoraphobia, lack of confidence, etc.
I dont "get high".
Anything I do/did was to calm down.
Its very hurtful
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