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08-23-2019, 08:33 AM

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Louise39

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Day 2 reflecting

I should be day 29 but I'm not focusing on that at the moment I broke and brought a drink 2 days ago..the minute it got into my system i regretted it and poured the bottle away....never understood how people could do that In the past and didn't even believe people could do that as once I had my first drink I was going for days...I don't want to get too deep but I kinda feel like something happened to me that night I got my power back...I chose not to feel like that ever again...I chose to pour it away...and it's made me realise how much I bloody love love love being sober... the last month I struggled and everyday was a fight and I felt sorry for myself but today I can't wait to get into a new routine and be clean and cosy and present not a useless drunk mess hiding in the kitchen chain smoking. ...I've had a rough 2 years and I'm ready to deal with it now how ever much it hurts because I never ever want to feel drunk or hungover ever again I dint realise it would be a day to day journey but with this site and attending meetings for the first time I can actually say it and believe it and mean it from the bottom of my soul....I got this..finally ❤

08-23-2019, 09:08 AM

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biminiblue

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That is the Moment, right there.

Getting your Power back.

I think multiple relapses tend to weaken that resolve and faith. Well done, keep going.

08-23-2019, 09:36 AM

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january161992

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Originally Posted by Louise39

the minute it got into my system i regretted it and poured the bottle away

never forget it!

and use that memory as a tool against future urges

thats what i do anyway

08-23-2019, 09:37 AM

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Sohard

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Quote:

Originally Posted by biminiblue

I think multiple relapses tend to weaken that resolve and faith.

I totally agree with this, which is why I intend to never relapse again. My resolve and faith are strong, and I have the “power” to keep them that way.

I used to think that resolve/faith are things you had or did not have. I now realize both are things you can actively do. In my mind, they are now both verbs.

08-23-2019, 09:55 AM

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brighterday1234

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Into action now 🙏

08-23-2019, 12:34 PM

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Anna

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Louise, yes, it's a day to day journey, but it will get easier as each day and week goes by.

08-23-2019, 11:32 PM

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NicLin

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Proud of you Louise, really proud. You have that power and can manage anything!!!

08-23-2019, 11:42 PM

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Mags1

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Louise, well done for tipping it down the sink, it could’ve got worse.
And yaaay for ‘getting’ it. Now the journey starts to stay stopped.

08-24-2019, 04:38 AM

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Misssy2

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It sounds like something clicked in your soul....to be able to dump out alcohol is a miracle I think....I'm happy that you are feeling more in control and ready!
Hugs.