My name is Angel and i been an addict since the age of 15. Being constantly bullied and teased i turned to the wrong crowd for support that i wasn't receiving at home or from school. It started off with alcohol and cigarettes but then it progress to weed then cocaine, crystal and ketamine. 5 years fast forwarded and here i am cleaned from substances. Ive been clean for 5 days and its the most i’ve accomplished in so long. My sobriety date is July 8th 2019 and i thank god for holding my hand through this journey. I never plan on giving up because this feeling is truly amazing. My parents and brother look at me again, they want to conversate with me, they want to be apart of my life again.

Thank you! Grateful i am to even be on a forum.. most of my friends never made it to the other end of the tunnel to see the light. Im grabbing my balls and doing what it takes to get clean. I dont want to be another statistic.

Hi Angel, I’m so glad you are here. Great job on 5 days! Your story really inspires me

@24violets
Thank you. Thank you! Reading that really makes me feel amazing. The testimony i have is probably the same as other in my shoes. Im really nervous to even be talking about my issue but step one “we admitted that we are powerless over substances (alcohol for my A.A people) and that are lives are unmanageable.”

Welcome Angel.

Thank you all. Waking up to you all replying gives me the ******* hope that i can get more days under my belt. Man i dont know why i feel this fuzzy feeling in me but its putting a smile on my face. A podcast that i’ve been listening to (Recovery Elevator) has helped me out tremendously, although i was a hardcore alcoholic but everything said by Churchill resonates with my drug problems. Waking up, i had a little panic attack. My brain started going off sending signals “when are you going to use” “oh its the weekend lets get ******* wild” but i acknowledged took a deep breath and in my head i said “Lord, please help me as these 20 mins or unmindfulness feel an eternity.” But today will be day six and i asked my uncle if we can go to the mall or get some coffee because i need to be distracted .

Wow it sensors out my cussing lol i dropped two F bombs

PaulSandy and Mr. 305 (SoberRican) way to go on the double digits ! Would you two say that staying sober is easier than trying to get sober? If that makes sense.

@misssy2 thank you. Yes fentanyl is probably the most easiest **** to get hooked on. Im really familiar with it since that was the main ingredient to mix with to make crystal. Two of my friends would drink Lean (that liquid heroin) then mix it with crystal and burying them one after the other is probably what still eats me alive. I miss them dearly and they will never see me breaking the chain and getting cleaned up. But, my family will which is the most important. They said the first two weeks of sobriety is difficult but i will get past it. Im desperate for sobriety and like back then how i would do anything to get my fix. Its the same mentality for me getting sober. I hope im making sense .

@finalround thank you partner. Im looking at the forums and im at aw with the wisdom filled in the threads. This is where i belong, i was always just looking in the wrong rabbit holes. Hope to hear more from you ☝🏽 like addicts, cowboys as well stick together !

And to the others that posted on the forum, i thank you as well. You will hear more from me and this journey as days go by. Thank you lord for the internet haha. CHEERS !