ulfr

I want to die am paranoid that my minster hates me i just want end it am in love with him but not in a sexual way

PrayBreathe

I'm sorry you feel this way. Are you recovering and feel paranoid? Or paranoid only because of the friendship/relationship with this person? A lot of times when we confide in someone that we are attracted too, it's hard not to get emotionally involved. I'm not going to give advice on relationship things, but maybe you need to step back and gain a different perspective on the situation?

Anna

River, maybe you should step back from your minister for awhile until you feel better. And, please get your husband to take you to an ER if you feel you might harm yourself.

saoutchik

I feel certain your minister doesn't hate you River. He wouldn't be much of a minister if he did. As others have already suggested maybe you should take a break from him for a while.

ReadyAtLast

I'm sure your minister doesn't hate you at all. It's perhaps not the most healthy thing though to feel as though you love him. Maybe he senses it or knows this and is keeping a professional distance whcih may come across as less friendly. He knows how vulnerable you are and probably doesn't want to give the wrong impression or lead you on.

I agree with the others in taking a step back. It is easy to rely on people we confide in and feel more than is appropriate. Distance probably the best thing.

ulfr

i love him not as a husband and wife way but as a very good friend and protector father figure

Dee74

I'm sorry that things are a bit overwhelming right now River.

I really hope you have someone to talk to and maybe someone to advocate for you to see a Dr?

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ReadyAtLast

How are you doing this morning River?

ulfr

am ok am at day 3 again i od'd on saturday seeing my minster today at 2pm
feeling bit better

Dee74

I hope he's able to help and maybe help to get you to see your Dr, River.

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JudicatorPanzer

Don't hurt yourself over false fear. You even called it paranoia, so you know yourself it is not real.

WhoDeyPI

Maybe this is just my opinion, but it doesn't sound like the relationship between you and your minister is a healthy one. Perhaps you need to seek out someone else to talk to.

Erratic

here thinking of you river x

PippoRossi

River I'm sorry you are going through this.