Another try
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Another try
hi all
I first signed up here in 2014 and with support of a lot of people here, i managed to go 3 months without any drink. Unfortunately i could not sustain this due to my mental health, today i am back 5 years on and a few more grey hairs and a few more problems in my life but still drinking. Well, i am currently 1 week into sobriety for the first time since 2014 and wondering if there is a way back out of this. I hope there is, i will try my best. I wish everyone else strength and support as we try and get through day by day. See you in the threads. Love and best wishes to all.
I first signed up here in 2014 and with support of a lot of people here, i managed to go 3 months without any drink. Unfortunately i could not sustain this due to my mental health, today i am back 5 years on and a few more grey hairs and a few more problems in my life but still drinking. Well, i am currently 1 week into sobriety for the first time since 2014 and wondering if there is a way back out of this. I hope there is, i will try my best. I wish everyone else strength and support as we try and get through day by day. See you in the threads. Love and best wishes to all.
The Little Alcoholic Monstress That Could
Join Date: Oct 2009
Location: Northern California
Posts: 1,159
Welcome back tic!
I have certainly been a chronic relapser, for the past 10 years. I am on day 18 and something feels different this time. I’m going to meetings, talking to people, offering to help, trying to read and post on others’ threads not just my own, reading the big book and really trying to digest the material, and really I’m just looking for anything i can to feed my sobriety right now. The barriers i had before of shame, guilt, embarrassment, feeling like i dont belong are either gone or diminished compared to the kind of alcoholic/addict I’ve become. Anything is better than taking a drink for me and i see that now. I can only share my experience n hopefully it helps in any small way. Have a great day!
I have certainly been a chronic relapser, for the past 10 years. I am on day 18 and something feels different this time. I’m going to meetings, talking to people, offering to help, trying to read and post on others’ threads not just my own, reading the big book and really trying to digest the material, and really I’m just looking for anything i can to feed my sobriety right now. The barriers i had before of shame, guilt, embarrassment, feeling like i dont belong are either gone or diminished compared to the kind of alcoholic/addict I’ve become. Anything is better than taking a drink for me and i see that now. I can only share my experience n hopefully it helps in any small way. Have a great day!
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Thank you all
I have not had any help or been to any meetings and I feel like thats my downfall. I keep it all inside me and drink on my own and have nobody to talk to about it.feel like i would be judged and humiliated. Not logical i know. Its a big leap to go to meetings, you are doing great by being open to people and letting people help. Its great to hear!
Originally Posted by LiveLikeGold6 
Welcome back tic!
I have certainly been a chronic relapser, for the past 10 years. I am on day 18 and something feels different this time. I’m going to meetings, talking to people, offering to help, trying to read and post on others’ threads not just my own, reading the big book and really trying to digest the material, and really I’m just looking for anything i can to feed my sobriety right now. The barriers i had before of shame, guilt, embarrassment, feeling like i dont belong are either gone or diminished compared to the kind of alcoholic/addict I’ve become. Anything is better than taking a drink for me and i see that now. I can only share my experience n hopefully it helps in any small way. Have a great day!
I have certainly been a chronic relapser, for the past 10 years. I am on day 18 and something feels different this time. I’m going to meetings, talking to people, offering to help, trying to read and post on others’ threads not just my own, reading the big book and really trying to digest the material, and really I’m just looking for anything i can to feed my sobriety right now. The barriers i had before of shame, guilt, embarrassment, feeling like i dont belong are either gone or diminished compared to the kind of alcoholic/addict I’ve become. Anything is better than taking a drink for me and i see that now. I can only share my experience n hopefully it helps in any small way. Have a great day!
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Posts: 25,373
Meetings are interesting.
Get there right as it starts. Sit quietly. Totally harmless, might save your life. Talk or not, it's all up to you. They don't make you stand up in front of everyone, you don't have to say anything to anyone at all unless you want to - meetings are pretty laid back in my experience. Go at your own pace, have a cookie.
But save your life.
Maybe make a sober friend. Or a friend who understands, at least.
Welcome back Tictoc.
Get there right as it starts. Sit quietly. Totally harmless, might save your life. Talk or not, it's all up to you. They don't make you stand up in front of everyone, you don't have to say anything to anyone at all unless you want to - meetings are pretty laid back in my experience. Go at your own pace, have a cookie.
But save your life.
Maybe make a sober friend. Or a friend who understands, at least.
Welcome back Tictoc.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,373
Welcome back tictoc 
In order to stay in recovery/sober, I had to address other issues as well - for me that was most;y physical health but mental health was in there too.
I really encourage you to find help for whatever your mental health issues are - I think you'll probably find them a little easier to tackle with the right professional help and without alcohol
and...real;y throw yourself into this community - post often, even if ts to help someone else
D
In order to stay in recovery/sober, I had to address other issues as well - for me that was most;y physical health but mental health was in there too.
I really encourage you to find help for whatever your mental health issues are - I think you'll probably find them a little easier to tackle with the right professional help and without alcohol
and...real;y throw yourself into this community - post often, even if ts to help someone else
D
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Welcome back tictoc
In order to stay in recovery/sober, I had to address other issues as well - for me that was most;y physical health but mental health was in there too.
I really encourage you to find help for whatever your mental health issues are - I think you'll probably find them a little easier to tackle with the right professional help and without alcohol
and...real;y throw yourself into this community - post often, even if ts to help someone else
D
In order to stay in recovery/sober, I had to address other issues as well - for me that was most;y physical health but mental health was in there too.
I really encourage you to find help for whatever your mental health issues are - I think you'll probably find them a little easier to tackle with the right professional help and without alcohol
and...real;y throw yourself into this community - post often, even if ts to help someone else
D
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Originally Posted by Tictoc
Thank you all
I have not had any help or been to any meetings and I feel like thats my downfall. I keep it all inside me and drink on my own and have nobody to talk to about it.feel like i would be judged and humiliated. Not logical i know. Its a big leap to go to meetings, you are doing great by being open to people and letting people help. Its great to hear!
I have not had any help or been to any meetings and I feel like thats my downfall. I keep it all inside me and drink on my own and have nobody to talk to about it.feel like i would be judged and humiliated. Not logical i know. Its a big leap to go to meetings, you are doing great by being open to people and letting people help. Its great to hear!
Only took me a couple decades to realize it 
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