chiklet

Hey- Just reaching out- just wondering if there are others like me. I've fallen into a dark hole and can't seem to make my way out of it. I don't know what happened or why, just know when it escalated. Which was about this time last year. Things seemed to keep getting really depressing- I had to get my parents in a new senior residence- my dad has alzheimer's- etc. And my husband lost his job and driver's license that same time- so basically had to drive him everywhere. With criticism. Anyway- I don't know what's wrong with me- I have to see someone like a psychiatrist or therapist- but can't seem to do it- I mean it's just become a tormentous horrible routine of trying to sedate and still wanting to be normal again.
I don't know where the normal went.
I was sent to the hospital back on October 3rd cuz I couldn't sleep and ended up taking a bottle of- well 17 pills of ambien with alcohol- I was then sent to a psychiatric facility and was only there for five days-when I came home my husband was in his routine of going out to bars and basically I stayed home.
Please no judgements- I'm here to just get in a better place.
So, Hi

PippoRossi

Hi, chiklet. I'm glad you are here. Keep posting. There is a lot of wisdom to be found on these forums.

doggonecarl

I think most everyone who finds their way to Sober Recovery is like you. Hurting and wanting to get better. Hope you stick around and can find the reward of sobriety.

Anna

Welcome back, and I'm sorry you're struggling. Talking to a therapist could be a good idea for you. It might also be an idea to talk to your dr about the possibility you are depressed.

There is a way out of the dark hole.

least

Glad you came back. I hope the support here can help you get sober for good.

Ghostlight1

Welcome back, I'm glad you made it.
Things seem pretty complicated in your life right now.
I hope you find the support you're looking for here and with a psychiatrist and therapist.
Best to you.

PhoenixJ

Heya, welcome Ch. I echo Anna's words- see your doc and a counsellor. Also SR has so much info, stories and support- go for a tour and check out the resources here.

chiklet

Thank you for all the helpful responses- I know I have AA I can go to and yes I can check out the resources here-

Dee74

I'm sorry you've been struggling but it's good to see you back Chiklet

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DriGuy

I don't know where your normal went, either. You've given a lot of clues, but I can't put them together. This is going to be your task, and off hand, I'd say you need to get yourself a professional counselor. I'd be interested if you would keep us informed during the journey ahead. I wish you the best and hope you find your way.

Misssy2

I wish you the best...and of course get professional help to pull you out of the hole....you cant' do it alone.....not many can....I really want you to feel better cause I know how you are feeling...the same way I have been feeling on and off for the last 4 years.

I'm not drinking now...6 days....and I'm working on getting professional help as well...WE can do this....."I" can't.