excuses, sacrifices and the struggle
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excuses, sacrifices and the struggle
may was brutal. i relapsed fully. smoking weed every day and drinking a couple times a week. spending money at a high rate (and i don't make that much.)
my job is too easy and i smoke weed with my co workers all day.
can't seem to let go of it. i need to find some new activities to take the place of the drinking and drugs. do i need a rock bottom or something to wake me up? do i need to be homeless or get fired again?
what will it take? i'm stuck at this stage. to unlock my full potential i need to be sober. i just can't ******* do it.
another day 1 today.
my job is too easy and i smoke weed with my co workers all day.
can't seem to let go of it. i need to find some new activities to take the place of the drinking and drugs. do i need a rock bottom or something to wake me up? do i need to be homeless or get fired again?
what will it take? i'm stuck at this stage. to unlock my full potential i need to be sober. i just can't ******* do it.
another day 1 today.
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My problem originated in my cranium. Finding new activities to take the place of drinking and drugs proved only to be a temporary solution for me because no matter what I did, my cranium and it's convoluted corridors was still sitting there firmly attached to my shoulders. I was looking for an external solution for an internal problem and I never found it. I needed to worked on what was causing the problem... my thinking.
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Originally Posted by readyt0change 
what will it take?
It's difficult, which is why you are stuck where you are, in the easy comforting world of addiction.
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You can stop drinking and you do not have to go lower than you are now. Taking action is the key. Maybe you are bored with your job? Could it be time to make a change and do something that was more fulfilling for you. And, I think that adding enjoyable activities to your life will increase your happiness and good feelings about things and therefore, discourage you from drinking.
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Originally Posted by readyt0change
you guys are right.
i was watching californication and hank says something that stuck with me...
"noble in thought, weak in action"
which is exactly how i am.
i will change my ways
i was watching californication and hank says something that stuck with me...
"noble in thought, weak in action"
which is exactly how i am.
i will change my ways
One key element is transferring my "to do list" of both goals and needed tasks to my actual appointment calendar.
I making some "appointments" with myself to get things done. I'll let you know how it goes. . .
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Originally Posted by Dee74
another vote for action Readyt0change 
any ideas on what that action might look like?
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any ideas on what that action might look like?
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so many justifications and excuses.
going to sleep last night i thought about dying and how i wouldn't care if i didn't wake up.
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