Trying for the last time
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Trying for the last time
Hello all, I have been a lurker on this site for a few years and posted once ot twice a few years back. Short story- mid 30s drank since 21, heavily the last 6. Tried detox numerous times only to drink again. Well my last bender lasted 6 days, quit my job, and fell into a deeper depression. I told myself I've had enough. Went back into treatment for 5 days(all insurance would pay for) and have been sober 22 days. While in recovery my doctor told me my liver was in a fragile state and that if I wanted to be around in 2 years I better quit drinking for good. That was all I needed to hear! That scared me to death.
I have been in and out of the rooms rooms for years but have been attending meetings daily and have a great sponsor. Got a shot of vivitrol while in recovery and it has been helping. I am on meds for depression and am seeking out a therapist.
I am happy so far no cravings but my emotions are all over the place, worse than any other time I tried to quit. I can barely handle it. I am eating healthy and trying to exercise but don't really have any motivation to do anything. I am sort of a fearful of health issues so am waiting a few months to have my liver checked. I'm afraid if I do it now I may drink if it's bad news. I'd like to check in daily here and post. I love the support I have seen from members in other threads. I figured it was time to come out of the shadows and post. 😁
I have been in and out of the rooms rooms for years but have been attending meetings daily and have a great sponsor. Got a shot of vivitrol while in recovery and it has been helping. I am on meds for depression and am seeking out a therapist.
I am happy so far no cravings but my emotions are all over the place, worse than any other time I tried to quit. I can barely handle it. I am eating healthy and trying to exercise but don't really have any motivation to do anything. I am sort of a fearful of health issues so am waiting a few months to have my liver checked. I'm afraid if I do it now I may drink if it's bad news. I'd like to check in daily here and post. I love the support I have seen from members in other threads. I figured it was time to come out of the shadows and post. 😁
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Welcome, SparkforLife!
I'm glad you posted and have decided to stop drinking. 22 days of sobriety is fantastic. You said that your emotions are more all over the place than in the past when you stopped drinking. That's likely due to kindling - each time we quit, it gets harder.
You will find lots of support here.
I'm glad you posted and have decided to stop drinking. 22 days of sobriety is fantastic. You said that your emotions are more all over the place than in the past when you stopped drinking. That's likely due to kindling - each time we quit, it gets harder.
You will find lots of support here.
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Welcome to SR.
you will continue to learn here in SR, from
your therapists and recovery programs, apply
all this helpful knowledge on a continuous
bases building a strong recovery foundation
to live upon, and you, like many of us, will
achieve sobriety and many more gifts and
blessings for yrs to come.
Welcome to SR.
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Thank you all for the replies. I will definitely be sticking around and posting. Went to an AA meeting this morning and going to another one at noon. Feeling pretty good just emotional again. Trying to keep busy but sometimes all I want to do is lay in bed.
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Hi Dee, thanks for asking. Been having super bad anxiety all day. It's been an every other day occurence. But I'm trying to occupy my self. I had one thought drinking would cease my anxiety but I quickly put that out of my head. I would rather take this anxiety than ever drink again! I just don't know how to get out of my head- thoughts are racing.
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