The Miracles That Happen
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The Miracles That Happen
I have to admit something to you....
A lot of times, I was inwardly skeptical of 'miracle' talk.
I felt like that was overplayed, cliched, drama, godly-religio-mumbo-jumbo.
But....
Sobriety has brought me so much in life the past 5+ years. It has brought so much reparation, turnaround, improvement, giving, loving, growth, connection, honesty, integrity, positivity, learning, feeling, emotion, healing, friendship, insight, love, leadership, impact, ability, and giveback to the world around me that it's difficult to see it as anything but miraculous.
I remember dragging myself into this community years ago, feeling sheepish and ashamed and unsure.... I remember failing after a few months, going back out to it, returning here with renewed understanding that I wanted another life.... I remember the struggles for the first couple of years; with emotion, depression, anxiety, fear, uncertainty......
But now it's a whole different life. It's a whole different me. It's not a struggle. It's a gift.
The sunrise in the morning reminds me of the power greater than myself that helped restore me to sanity and brought about miracles in my life.
This community was a foundation of that miracle.
Keep at it..... wherever you are in your journey.
A lot of times, I was inwardly skeptical of 'miracle' talk.
I felt like that was overplayed, cliched, drama, godly-religio-mumbo-jumbo.
But....
Sobriety has brought me so much in life the past 5+ years. It has brought so much reparation, turnaround, improvement, giving, loving, growth, connection, honesty, integrity, positivity, learning, feeling, emotion, healing, friendship, insight, love, leadership, impact, ability, and giveback to the world around me that it's difficult to see it as anything but miraculous.
I remember dragging myself into this community years ago, feeling sheepish and ashamed and unsure.... I remember failing after a few months, going back out to it, returning here with renewed understanding that I wanted another life.... I remember the struggles for the first couple of years; with emotion, depression, anxiety, fear, uncertainty......
But now it's a whole different life. It's a whole different me. It's not a struggle. It's a gift.
The sunrise in the morning reminds me of the power greater than myself that helped restore me to sanity and brought about miracles in my life.
This community was a foundation of that miracle.
Keep at it..... wherever you are in your journey.
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I am so happy for you, FreeOwl!
My reparation has been mostly internal, well- that's the kind that actually matters to me the most anyway.
I don't think there is any way I would go back to the bottle anymore.
As far as healing of strenuous relationships, in my case, after becoming sober it's become very apparent that the strain was never caused by my alcoholism in the first place. Since those parties were neither present during my recovery, nor do they engage in showing any kind of appreciation now that I've been sober the longest I have in my life. Now that alcohol isn't present in my life, they seem to have found other sticks to try and beat me with, and have me go on a guilt trip, just like they did when I was boozing.
However, those relationships do not define my present, and they most certainly won't define my future. Some people you have the option simply pressing the delete button on. Others need to be minimized, because they cannot be eliminated entirely, unfortunately. It's life, I guess.
My reparation has been mostly internal, well- that's the kind that actually matters to me the most anyway.
I don't think there is any way I would go back to the bottle anymore.
As far as healing of strenuous relationships, in my case, after becoming sober it's become very apparent that the strain was never caused by my alcoholism in the first place. Since those parties were neither present during my recovery, nor do they engage in showing any kind of appreciation now that I've been sober the longest I have in my life. Now that alcohol isn't present in my life, they seem to have found other sticks to try and beat me with, and have me go on a guilt trip, just like they did when I was boozing.
However, those relationships do not define my present, and they most certainly won't define my future. Some people you have the option simply pressing the delete button on. Others need to be minimized, because they cannot be eliminated entirely, unfortunately. It's life, I guess.
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Originally Posted by FreeOwl 
I have to admit something to you....
A lot of times, I was inwardly skeptical of 'miracle' talk.
I felt like that was overplayed, cliched, drama, godly-religio-mumbo-jumbo.
But....
Sobriety has brought me so much in life the past 5+ years. It has brought so much reparation, turnaround, improvement, giving, loving, growth, connection, honesty, integrity, positivity, learning, feeling, emotion, healing, friendship, insight, love, leadership, impact, ability, and giveback to the world around me that it's difficult to see it as anything but miraculous.
I remember dragging myself into this community years ago, feeling sheepish and ashamed and unsure.... I remember failing after a few months, going back out to it, returning here with renewed understanding that I wanted another life.... I remember the struggles for the first couple of years; with emotion, depression, anxiety, fear, uncertainty......
But now it's a whole different life. It's a whole different me. It's not a struggle. It's a gift.
The sunrise in the morning reminds me of the power greater than myself that helped restore me to sanity and brought about miracles in my life.
This community was a foundation of that miracle.
Keep at it..... wherever you are in your journey.
A lot of times, I was inwardly skeptical of 'miracle' talk.
I felt like that was overplayed, cliched, drama, godly-religio-mumbo-jumbo.
But....
Sobriety has brought me so much in life the past 5+ years. It has brought so much reparation, turnaround, improvement, giving, loving, growth, connection, honesty, integrity, positivity, learning, feeling, emotion, healing, friendship, insight, love, leadership, impact, ability, and giveback to the world around me that it's difficult to see it as anything but miraculous.
I remember dragging myself into this community years ago, feeling sheepish and ashamed and unsure.... I remember failing after a few months, going back out to it, returning here with renewed understanding that I wanted another life.... I remember the struggles for the first couple of years; with emotion, depression, anxiety, fear, uncertainty......
But now it's a whole different life. It's a whole different me. It's not a struggle. It's a gift.
The sunrise in the morning reminds me of the power greater than myself that helped restore me to sanity and brought about miracles in my life.
This community was a foundation of that miracle.
Keep at it..... wherever you are in your journey.
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Such a great post FreeOwl - and thank you for being someone longer in sobriety than me to remind me of all the gifts we get.
I had a truly horrifying relapse dream last night. Today I need to focus on the gifts - and being emotionally sober.
Thanks again for sharing.
I had a truly horrifying relapse dream last night. Today I need to focus on the gifts - and being emotionally sober.
Thanks again for sharing.
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This was a fantastic reminder to myself.... thanks to biminiblue for the comments that moved me to go back and read some of my own old words. Today, on Day 5 of being free of cannabis after a good year and a half of choosing to let it back into my life, this reminder from my own year 5 of both sobriety from alcohol and freedom from cannabis is a gift.
Thank you to all who had replied and to whom I had failed to reply back.
Happy Clean and Sober day to you alL!
Thank you to all who had replied and to whom I had failed to reply back.
Happy Clean and Sober day to you alL!
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Originally Posted by FO
A lot of times, I was inwardly skeptical of 'miracle' talk.
I felt like that was overplayed, cliched, drama, godly-religio-mumbo-jumbo.
I felt like that was overplayed, cliched, drama, godly-religio-mumbo-jumbo.
Yes! Me too!
Then personal/emotional/no-spiritual/Zen-ish development emerged directly out of a secular sobriety maintain system.
That has helped me expand my horizon.
I'm now in the camp of "if it floats your boat" that good with me
If a miracle makes your day. Who am I to pop your balloon.Namaste.
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