GrayJ

Hey guys,

Felt like venting a bit. Just over 6 weeks sober now (I am chuffed) but I did have a moment this evening walking home from the supermarket. I am waiting to hear back about a support worker role and am waiting for my DBS check to come back. I have told them I was cautioned in 2006 when I was 16 and they said they would have to do a risk assessment which I totally understand of course. But this waiting is making me anxious. The voice in my head earlier this evening was goading me to grab a few bottles of wine from the off licence.

Very glad I resisted.

Gray x

Dee74

I'm glad you resisted too - the likelihood of something you did at 16 counting against you now is probably pretty miniscule

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least

Congrats on over six weeks sober! And way to go on staying sober.

GrayJ

Thanks guys x

kinzoku

Good for you for resisting! We have be vigilant, that voice is always waiting. Sneaky lil...

GrayJ

very true. I never knew how vocal it was until I stopped. I had my first alcohol dream recently too and woke up feeling guilty because it was so vivid.

Anna

I agree with Dee's comment. Try to not worry and good luck.

I'm glad you got through this sober.

MindfulMan

Remember resisting this craving when it happens again, which it probably will.

I also found it helpful to stare those huge scary cravings down right in the face...because under scrutiny they, and the AV in general, wither and die and look pathetic. No craving that I had after the first few weeks (when I was locked up and had no access to alcohol) could remotely stand up to my one realization...that I no longer drank under any circumstances, and that nothing the AV threw at me would ever justify drinking.

It gets easier.

Guener

Wishing you success on getting that position and further strength to just pass when an urge comes up.

Tinkerbeau

Hi Gray, well done on resisting, i too work in a job where i have a dbs and im not even sure if a caution from being 16 would even show up, so please don't worry and look forward to your new job