I'm making it happen.
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I'm making it happen.
Some of you may know that I've been struggling lately mentally and emotionally with something. I don't know what it is. All I can say is that my life felt like it mimicked the song TIME by Pink Floyd. One day all is well with your whole life ahead of you, next thing you know your on the backside of the mountain going downhill.
So with this in mind I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and get going. I started doing some things on Saturday. Today is Wednesday and I have a full time job lined up in two weeks, I am hosting open houses every weekend, and have some potential other options coming my way.
I really think my trip to the Phillipines spurred this train of thought. I got tired of waiting to die (at least that was my attitude). I have a lot of life left. I'm a young 51 years old. I don't mean to say that in a bragging way, but I can still train at the gym with teenagers and talk with college kids like I was still in college. I want make some things happen in the next 10 years and I've decided to get off my butt and do it.
Wouldn't even attempt this when drinking. Sobriety has its advantages.
So with this in mind I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and get going. I started doing some things on Saturday. Today is Wednesday and I have a full time job lined up in two weeks, I am hosting open houses every weekend, and have some potential other options coming my way.
I really think my trip to the Phillipines spurred this train of thought. I got tired of waiting to die (at least that was my attitude). I have a lot of life left. I'm a young 51 years old. I don't mean to say that in a bragging way, but I can still train at the gym with teenagers and talk with college kids like I was still in college. I want make some things happen in the next 10 years and I've decided to get off my butt and do it.
Wouldn't even attempt this when drinking. Sobriety has its advantages.
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Wishing you the best going forward.
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FYI, it doesn't escape me that I've gone through some "re-sets" on this forum before. Is this that much different? I can't say, all I can say is that (speaking for myself only) I have a choice to do the bare minimum or get out and tackle the world. I like the ladder. My younger years taught to gravitate towards risk and excitement. But I'm older now and I know better.
I turned 48 this past August and took it pretty hard. Felt like you say, I was waiting to die. I was drinking pretty heavily at the time so was in a dark place. But, I'm not dead yet. Still got a lot of fire in me and things to do. Stopped drinking, started exercising again (I've always been fit and I respond quickly to it) and put a plan in place for my 2nd act. Feeling very good about it and my future. And I'm giving it my all without being held back by booze.
51 ? Hell, you're just getting started man. Go do it. Whatever it is.
We ain't dead yet!
51 ? Hell, you're just getting started man. Go do it. Whatever it is.
We ain't dead yet!
Awesome!
I love this attitude.
It's absurd how I never valued life at all when I was younger and thought I just wanted to be DONE with it by the time I was x years old.
And the years pass and I'm still here, so I want to make the most of it!
I love this attitude.
It's absurd how I never valued life at all when I was younger and thought I just wanted to be DONE with it by the time I was x years old.
And the years pass and I'm still here, so I want to make the most of it!
I have lost the last decade of my life so I think I know how you feel. I am just waiting to die myself. At least, that is my attitude right now, but I know alcoholism brings such hopelessness. Before I give up, I will at least try to live in recovery.
Great going, Jeff!
I'm with you - I'm 55, and for a while there I figured I'd just live out the rest of my life in a boring state of sameness, and it was a very depressing thought. But then I started looking around at folks older than me (including my mom) who were still active and doing all sorts of cool stuff. And I thought, "why not me?" I can still do probably 90% of the things I could have done when younger, but didn't, due to drinking and other factors. So yeah, I'm getting out there and doing things I have always wanted to do, and also just enjoying the fact that I'm healthy and able to do the everyday things, too. Not everyone is able to.
I'm with you - I'm 55, and for a while there I figured I'd just live out the rest of my life in a boring state of sameness, and it was a very depressing thought. But then I started looking around at folks older than me (including my mom) who were still active and doing all sorts of cool stuff. And I thought, "why not me?" I can still do probably 90% of the things I could have done when younger, but didn't, due to drinking and other factors. So yeah, I'm getting out there and doing things I have always wanted to do, and also just enjoying the fact that I'm healthy and able to do the everyday things, too. Not everyone is able to.
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The waiting to die attitude is an easy trap to fall into. I have no advice for those who feel that way, but I will share with you what I did. I have an unconventional background. My life has not been corporate cush job with the a marriage to the high school prom queen, the A-frame house, white picket fence and 2 kids and a dog. I will never have that. Ever. (To make matters worse, my brother and my parents have that exact life) I had to re-evaluate my life going forward.
I hope all of you that feel like you are simply waiting to die can formulate a plan and move out of that train of thought. We ALL have special talents and are to be appreciated by others. We may feel worthless, but we are not.
I know that there are many people in this forum that are much more "worldly" than myself, but I am hoping it doesn't dim the message. The message is this "big world out there, if you want to see it, you can" And its pretty awesome IMO.
Laying in bed hungover will never make it happen.
I hope all of you that feel like you are simply waiting to die can formulate a plan and move out of that train of thought. We ALL have special talents and are to be appreciated by others. We may feel worthless, but we are not.
I know that there are many people in this forum that are much more "worldly" than myself, but I am hoping it doesn't dim the message. The message is this "big world out there, if you want to see it, you can" And its pretty awesome IMO.
Laying in bed hungover will never make it happen.
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I went to the Philippines and experienced some things that will stay with me for life. Good things. In fact, great things.
Prayer: God/Great Spirit/Higher Power,
Grant me eyes to see, ears to hear and strength to embrace the goodness of life.
It's okay to feel joy and pain at the same time. Eventually pain gets worked through and the habit of looking for the good and enjoying the heck out of it becomes natural.
One day at a time.
Prayer: God/Great Spirit/Higher Power,
Grant me eyes to see, ears to hear and strength to embrace the goodness of life.
It's okay to feel joy and pain at the same time. Eventually pain gets worked through and the habit of looking for the good and enjoying the heck out of it becomes natural.
One day at a time.
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