Sometimes........just sometimes 😱😱😱
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Sometimes........just sometimes 😱😱😱
Do you know I'm bobbing along, up an down with everyday stuff, and sometimes things escalate to the point that you build it up to mammoth proportions.
I wanna stop, get wrecked to stop the thinking, to stop the merry go round. I'm exhausted.��
I try every single day to become a better person, to hold everyone close, and to have awareness and compassion for all. Then I feel like hitting the button and saying "go **** yourselves" I'm so damn tired of fighting.
T o day I had an appointment at docs, it appears I have may have bipolar �� who'd of guessed eh!!! Lol.
I struggle everyday with emotions, with trying to separate real feelings. I met a friend I hold so dear, that's helped me so much these last few months, I've got my lines blurred I fear, I can't separate how I feel man, I'm border line obsessed, but in a good way. Now I'm scared I've driven away the one positive in my life. Because I expressed how I feel, in normal relations, it would be brushed off, to me I'm pacing and feeling bereft. It's a daily struggle �� I'm up down all the time. I have an assessment coming up. More pills ��
Just had to get it out ����
Doris xx
I wanna stop, get wrecked to stop the thinking, to stop the merry go round. I'm exhausted.��
I try every single day to become a better person, to hold everyone close, and to have awareness and compassion for all. Then I feel like hitting the button and saying "go **** yourselves" I'm so damn tired of fighting.
T o day I had an appointment at docs, it appears I have may have bipolar �� who'd of guessed eh!!! Lol.
I struggle everyday with emotions, with trying to separate real feelings. I met a friend I hold so dear, that's helped me so much these last few months, I've got my lines blurred I fear, I can't separate how I feel man, I'm border line obsessed, but in a good way. Now I'm scared I've driven away the one positive in my life. Because I expressed how I feel, in normal relations, it would be brushed off, to me I'm pacing and feeling bereft. It's a daily struggle �� I'm up down all the time. I have an assessment coming up. More pills ��
Just had to get it out ����
Doris xx
Last edited by Dee74; 04-01-2019 at 02:23 PM.
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Baby steps Doris. Seeing the doc today was a big step actually- and finding out a potential diagnosis is another big one. Finding out what the problem is means you are that much closer to a solution.
And you know that drinking won't make any of it better - the relief ( if any ) will be very short and then things will get worse - even worse than now seems most likely.
Glad you came to talk it through first and keep working at it.
And you know that drinking won't make any of it better - the relief ( if any ) will be very short and then things will get worse - even worse than now seems most likely.
Glad you came to talk it through first and keep working at it.
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take a breath! get something to eat! seriously, wonky blood sugars start the cage a'rattling.
i have noticed when you are in a certain headspace your use of the word "man" goes way up. it's like a little tell.
i have noticed when you are in a certain headspace your use of the word "man" goes way up. it's like a little tell.
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Hey Doris - sorry things are a bit rough right now.
As I was trying to sort out the mess of my life, one thing I had to keep in mind was - drinking won't help.
Like you and I think a lot of others, I would build up pressure and then drink.
We have to break that cycle.
Finding support and using it helps, so does having a realistic expectation of what we can reasonably do in any 24 hour period
If we have other health concerns, physical or mental, I think we should deal with those too.
Above all we need to be patient. Sometimes change is not sudden, it's fgradual. I had to elarn to have faith that I wason the right road and that everythign eventually would be ok.
It was, and I'm sure it will be for you too Doris
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As I was trying to sort out the mess of my life, one thing I had to keep in mind was - drinking won't help.
Like you and I think a lot of others, I would build up pressure and then drink.
We have to break that cycle.
Finding support and using it helps, so does having a realistic expectation of what we can reasonably do in any 24 hour period
If we have other health concerns, physical or mental, I think we should deal with those too.
Above all we need to be patient. Sometimes change is not sudden, it's fgradual. I had to elarn to have faith that I wason the right road and that everythign eventually would be ok.
It was, and I'm sure it will be for you too Doris
D
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