Wurzel

So begining to realise i am depending on beer and drinking every night, amounts slowly increasing.
cant remember the last time i didnt drink at night which is real worry.

Kaily

Welcome Wurzel.

Well done on your decision not to drink, you won't be sorry.

I was a daily drinker and your right it takes more and more to get the same effect, in the end I was drinking a bottle of vodka everyday.

Nip it in the bud before it gets any worse and keep posting

Wurzel

Fighting the urge to not go the shop for beer , keep saying to myself " stop tomorrow " and just drink a bit less.
poured away all the beer in the house earlier, but keep thinking i can smell it :-(

Anna

Welcome Wurzel,

You can get through this day. Hang on and keep reading here and posting.

Wurzel

Thanks , dont want to drink but just realising what a huge part of my life it has become :-(

Kaily

Stay strong Wurzel, I know its hard.

The voice in your head that says quit tomorrow is your addicted voice or AV, the real you wants to stop today and you can. Sit with the discomfort, it comes and goes in waves, it will pass.

Have you eaten? You crave less when your full.

Finalround

Get thru today. You will start to feel so much better.

Wurzel

Hi Kaily

​​​​​have eaten and am doing everything i can to distract myself ,but i know im distracting myself to not think about drinking which i think is making it worse.

will try and tough it out and know i have to make it one day at a time, just havent done a day in as long as i can remember :-(

Kaily

Your doing all the right things, you can't cure the discomfort but accepting it helps.

You will be so pleased with yourself tomorrow! And rightly so

Wurzel

Thanks Kaily

i have kept this underwraps for a long time , family dont know as seperated and i live alone and only drink at home.

appreciate being able to just tell someone, thank you

Guener

I was drinking alone a lot of the time, and before I quit it wasn't really doing anything for me but making me more depressed about everything that I had been struggling with in my life.

Putting aside the alcohol is a daily thing, and the first days can be uncomfortable. When the urge comes to drink, do something else, like you have been, and ride it through. It sounds like you need to think about how you are going to maintain not drinking day to day, and already you are posting often, so what can you add to that? Take the words of encouragement here as sincere, for they are.

You can make it to the next day and the next. You can join the April class to form some bonds here of people that are at the same stage as you are to have regular conversation on how you are faring. It's worth it to do what you have begun, and I really hope you will stay with us.

Wurzel

Hi Guener

i have known i has a problem for a while but ignored it.

all i can think about is beer as im sat here, I know i have to do it and an trying not to get in the car and drive to the shops and buy some.

knowing i have the kind thoughts and encouragement of people i have never met is helping as i have felt so trapped and alone so thank you , im trying my best

Guener

Your AV is telling you it would be a good thing to go to the shop and buy something, but you have the control over not doing so. Put your wallet away, put up the keys, and settle into doing something else. What might distract you now?

Dee74

Welcome aboard

yes it's not very comfortable for a little while, but you can get through this part, and it is worth it

There are some good tips here too Wurzel.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-cravings.html (CarolD's tips for cravings)

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kinzoku

Hey wurzel! I hope you are enjoying a sober evening. Keep checking in with us, no judgement at all here. Its a good place to keep yourself accountable and go one day at a time with your sobriety.

Wurzel

Ok , made it through a sleepless sweaty horrible night.
have never drank so much water in my life, thank you all for your kind messages.
will check in later

Kaily

I was just wondering how you were doing Wurzel - Well done!

Finalround

First few nights will be like that. Then you will find sleep much deeper and restful. Gotta push through the first couple days to get there. You can do it.

yinzer

The first few days are the hardest. Keep checking in!

Pressmetilihurt

[QUOTE=Guener;7155091]I was drinking alone a lot of the time, and before I quit it wasn't really doing anything for me but making me more depressed about everything that I had been struggling with in my life.

You just described me!