SisterKiKi

Hi All...
I am really scared. My drinking has gotten out of control. I am so scared I can't stop. If I go to meetings it seems to trigger me & make me think about drinking. I can't lose my husband & three beautiful children. I am no-one without them. I only started drinking at 48, 6 yrs ago.

least

Welcome to the family. What do you mean you 'can't stop'? Do you drink to relieve the anxiety? You could talk to your doctor about quitting and ask him/her for help to get thru the acute withdrawal stage.

After you get detoxed, it's suggested you develop a plan to stay sober. We can help you with that.

I hope our support can help you get sober for good.

kinzoku

Start with one day. Keep trying until you get more. We are here. Maybe AA isn't for you, maybe it is, but there is a way somewhere.

SisterKiKi

Thanks for your replies.
By 'can't stop' I mean I can't resist buying it. Then I buy more. I just wish alcohol didn't exist & I wish there's wasn't a bottle shop on every corner, at every shops.

Delilah1

Welcome to SR! This site is an incredible support. The more sober time you get under your belt the easier it will be to not be triggered by alcohol. I used to completely avoid that aisle in the grocery store, now I can walk down it without any temptation or thought of drinking.

Dee74

Welcome Sister Kiki

what about posting here instead of giving in and buying it?
Thats got to be worth a go, yeah?

D

Guener

I rather like Dee's idea of posting here before you go shopping that you are not going to buy any alcohol. Post after you come back that you made it work. If you did buy alcohol, you are going to receive the advice to pour it out. If you don't post back, readers are going to assume that you bought alcohol and encourage you to do the same thing. It's a bit of accountability.

biminiblue

That six years number seems to be about right for women who go from drinking to DRINKING. I know that was about the amount of time it took me.

The way out is in your power.

Don't buy any today.

Go to bed sober tonight. Keep talking it out and stick with us.

The first week is the hardest, but what are your choices?

Ghostlight1

Hello and welcome to the forums.
I couldn't resist buying alcohol either. Nor could I resist going into bars, pubs.
It seemed I had no control. And the truth was, I didn't.
As an alcoholic I had no control over that first drink, which then led to twenty drinks.
It doesn't matter how long you've been drinking. Six years or six months, once you've lost control of your drinking, you may have a problem.

My problem, and I drank heavily for thirty years, is that I'm an alcoholic. I have little defense over that first drink.
The only thing that works for me is complete abstinence.
You may ask yourself, but how?
Well, as mentioned, come here before you buy alcohol. And what worked for me, going to AA for support.

That's what worked for me. I hope you do try one or the other or both.
Without help, I was doomed to die a slow alcoholic's death. Please don't let that happen to you or get as bad as I was.
There is help. There is hope. I hope you use it.

doggonecarl

You are also drinking if you don't go to meetings, right? So why not go to a meeting and bring up how they trigger you to drink and see what others AA members suggest.

Also, the meetings aren't the program of AA. The steps are.

If you fear losing your family, it's time to try what's available with renewed commitment.

MantaLady

Have to agree with Bim here! Same for me, later in life I started drinking regularly and over a period of 6-7 years had taken me over. Just know you are not alone and sobriety is possible. It’s not easy at first but it does get better!

Hang in there and welcome to the SR Family! xx

Anna

I started drinking in my mid-forties, too and carried on for a few years. I almost lost my family, too.

You can change your situation. Make a choice to not drinking today. Drive home by a different route so you don't pass the usual shops. Make a specific plan to be doing something different at the time you would be drinking.

We do understand how hard this is.