Hi sb members. Could use some direction. 45 days sober. 55 years old. Heavy alcohol use in younger years, as I got older became binge drinking when stressers which came down to either financial problems with work or crazy ex. Can’t believe I got through 5 court battles and kids are now off to college and pretty much in very good shape. A lot of personal sacrifices. In a financially bad situation right now. Living with girlfriend and kids and somewhat strenuous with my financial situation. Have 2nd job but burdened by courts order to pay significant college expenses. Very successful prior to divorce before ex worked the courts. Never needed much anyways. 45 days sober and having little difficulty with it. Go out socially no problem without drinking etc. workout everyday but smoke quite a bit. Reality setting in as I’m starting to question whether I am having a drinking problem or work problem. Self employed for 25 years and have ridden some major ups and downs. My brain feels better and I think I feel at my age the novelty of drinking has faded. Went through same phase with marijuana and in late 20’s just stopped because it grew old. Feel same way with alcohol. I will say this alcohol gave me a false sense of reality making things seem not as bad for a brief moment. It’s settling in and I’m somewhat ok with it, but looking back have a little ptsd from family court. Anyways thanks for letting me vent and try to make sense of things. Any comments or insight would be appreciated.