Well, Hello
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Well, Hello
I was really proud of my sober year and a half.
I still am.
I've done a lot since then. I got a new degree, new career, new job.
I can't say that alcohol has been my demise or anything.
But when things go rough I do turn to it and thats no good.
So i can't sleep tonight and a tough day at work looms ahead and I'm drinking beers when it is far too late at night.
And I thought about this place.
I thought about my sober time.
It wasn't like it was an awesome time. But it felt like an honest time. And a proud time.
So I'm not here to commit, but maybe I'm reaching out or...something.
I still am.
I've done a lot since then. I got a new degree, new career, new job.
I can't say that alcohol has been my demise or anything.
But when things go rough I do turn to it and thats no good.
So i can't sleep tonight and a tough day at work looms ahead and I'm drinking beers when it is far too late at night.
And I thought about this place.
I thought about my sober time.
It wasn't like it was an awesome time. But it felt like an honest time. And a proud time.
So I'm not here to commit, but maybe I'm reaching out or...something.
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Welcome back Kinzoku 
I remember being skittish myself.
No ones going to beat you about the head or try and tie you down...but I hope you stay around.
For drinkers like you and me, sober really is the only viable way to be
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I remember being skittish myself.
No ones going to beat you about the head or try and tie you down...but I hope you stay around.
For drinkers like you and me, sober really is the only viable way to be
D
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Today was tough. Last night I drank too much and didn't sleep. I think I knew I wanted to put myself in a bad place, maybe force my hand. I had work today.
Its not like other jobs I've had where you can tough it on with willpower because this job is 100% brainpower so it was really hard. I just drank tons and tons of water.
Got through. Had a date.
Quitting is hard and I feel tight lipped about everything now.
I just thought being hear would help and I'm here and I'm not drinking tonight.
Thank you all for your kindness.
Its not like other jobs I've had where you can tough it on with willpower because this job is 100% brainpower so it was really hard. I just drank tons and tons of water.
Got through. Had a date.
Quitting is hard and I feel tight lipped about everything now.
I just thought being hear would help and I'm here and I'm not drinking tonight.
Thank you all for your kindness.
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Originally Posted by kinzoku 
I was really proud of my sober year and a half.
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ODAAT at a time was all I could commit to in the beginning - with the important proviso that I backed up my resolution to do everything I could to remain and continue being sober every morning.
I really didn't want to drink any more. Not one more drop.
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I really didn't want to drink any more. Not one more drop.
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