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517 Days
All I can say is that I am grateful for this sobriety. I will also say it isn't easy. But nothing is easy.
For me I took hold of a higher power and asked him for help. I choose to call him "tunkasila" (Dakota word meaning grandfather). I pray and talk to him like a old friend. Asking everyday for his help to live this life sober and in a good way.
I had bad things happen along the way. My brother died from this addiction on October 15 2018. I was just over a year sober at the time. I made it through that with the help of AA friends and family and of course my higher power.
I've learned about myself with the help of AA. My ego is not my amigo. My ego likes to lie to me and tell me I deserve a drink and that it will be fine this time. It's almost a relief to know and believe that he's lying to me. Now as soon as that thought enters my head I know what's happening. I pray and stay busy. I can not let my guard down. I've been given a second chance and I must not let that ego get the best of me.
My ego knows I'm getting stronger so he comes as me in other ways. He tries to tell me the reason my children don't call is because they hate me. It's a lie. They are slowly learning to trust me again. It will take time.
At work he/ego tries to tell me the boss and supervisor is treating me unfairly. Not the case. We each pull our own weight and I know it.
He's/ego in the corner. and he's doing pushups. So I smudge and pray and ask for the strength to stay sober today.
I been given a lot and I better be grateful each day..... if Im not those pushups he's doing will allow him to overpower me.
I pray for all addicts.
I'm not perfect.
God bless you
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For me I took hold of a higher power and asked him for help. I choose to call him "tunkasila" (Dakota word meaning grandfather). I pray and talk to him like a old friend. Asking everyday for his help to live this life sober and in a good way.
I had bad things happen along the way. My brother died from this addiction on October 15 2018. I was just over a year sober at the time. I made it through that with the help of AA friends and family and of course my higher power.
I've learned about myself with the help of AA. My ego is not my amigo. My ego likes to lie to me and tell me I deserve a drink and that it will be fine this time. It's almost a relief to know and believe that he's lying to me. Now as soon as that thought enters my head I know what's happening. I pray and stay busy. I can not let my guard down. I've been given a second chance and I must not let that ego get the best of me.
My ego knows I'm getting stronger so he comes as me in other ways. He tries to tell me the reason my children don't call is because they hate me. It's a lie. They are slowly learning to trust me again. It will take time.
At work he/ego tries to tell me the boss and supervisor is treating me unfairly. Not the case. We each pull our own weight and I know it.
He's/ego in the corner. and he's doing pushups. So I smudge and pray and ask for the strength to stay sober today.
I been given a lot and I better be grateful each day..... if Im not those pushups he's doing will allow him to overpower me.
I pray for all addicts.
I'm not perfect.
God bless you
Mitakuye Oyasın (All are related)
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