tornrealization

I know this is cliche but I promised myself no booze for a year when I turned 40. So I did drink myself sick until the 2 days before. I remember sneaky pukes at work, and feeling so awful and ashamed. I had made this plans, knowing I need a full on quit, maybe a year to let that sink in. Then a group of us turning 40, it was decided we would go to beer tasting at museum. I said ok, I’ll let that slide. Then I’m like, NO! So after husband bought tickets, two weeks later, I said I’m skipping my birthday party. So I did. Nothing big or special for my 40th, but I was sober. Little things, like waking up and cleaning a bathroom I neglected has been good. Anyways I’ve been here twice. I don’t recall my handle from my late twenties. I have some scary stuff from 2014. I’m hoping this quit sticks. Playing the tape forward has been doing wonders. Turning 40 and wondering why I haven’t done better in career (wasted, that’s why). I’ve been to some AA meetings in the past, and I know it’s there in a crutch. I’ve got some books, and tea. I get health insurance in a couple weeks, so therapy, health check all in my list of things to do. Been reading here since b4 my latest quit so I consider SR a great resource too. I just wanted to post.

Zebra1275

Glad you are posting. Keep coming here everyday, this place can really help.

Ghostlight1

Welcome back, and congratulations on your sober time.
You can use AA as much more than a crutch. It can be a plan to successfully stop drinking.
I would give meetings a shot. What have you got to lose? Well, apparently a lot to answer my own question.
Coming here often helps my sobriety, too.

Best to you and many more sober days.