UtahMan2

So my last drink officially went down almost 80 hours ago before checking into the hospital for medical assistance.

I spent the weekend at home with my family and returned to work today. But, everything still seems a little off.. anxiety abounds. Relaxation and sleep are still hard to find.

I don't have any urge to drink per se, rather I'm hoping to put it further and further in the rear view mirror so I can just feel normal again, and not a shaky scared mess.

Bekindalways

Ugh. This can be rough I like the way you are just thinking hours right now. Keep at it.

suki44883

It will get better, but it will take time. I know no one likes to hear that, but your body has to adjust and will do so in its own time. Congrats on 80 hours!

Dee74

Things will inevitably get better UtahMan2

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Kdon853

Highercall

thomas11

You are in much better shape than you were in 80 hrs ago. Keep it going. Early sobriety is a bumpy road, but we can make it through. Keep posting if necessary.

August252015

Glad you are here and sharing. Indeed, it will get better with time. Taking care and being gentle w myself was the most important thing I needed to do after, of course, not starting to drink again.

What are you going to do to stay sober this time? There are lots of support threads - and a Class of Feb 2019 one that would be good for you to check out since it is people getting sober this month too. IRL, I started AA that first week, and it has saved my life.

Glad you are here.

NerfThis

The first couple of days after many days drinking were always the worst for me. The anxiety would be near unbearable.

It indeed gets better, but the problem with it getting better is the risk that feeling better means we attempt to drink again. A plan needs to be in place for when you inevitably start to feel comfortable and anxiety free again.

UtahMan2

I've tried AA a couple times in the past 6 or 7 years but never really felt the "it" factor of the program, it just didnt resound with me. That being said I know its saved countless lives, maybe it's worth giving it another try. My last shot at sobriety was back in 2017 and I went almost the entire year without a drink or a meeting, but I cant remember for the life of me why I started again.

Evoo

Sympthize with everything you’re going through.

Remember, everything you’re feeling is your body and mind rebalancing, healing. Nothing about what you’re feeling is fun — ugh. Glad you sought help and support — and glad you’re posting here.

Ghostlight1

I couldn't remember why I started again after periods of sobriety, either.
Except one. I was doing my laundry, seven months sober, and there was a convenience store out back that sold beer. That was all the excuse I needed. Off on another indeterminable drunk.

I never needed a reason to start again after periods of sobriety. It was the fourth day that killed me for the longest time.
I did find AA helpful. In fact, it probably saved my life. That and a lot of praying.
I was a bad drunk for thirty years, mind you. With the only periods of sobriety were when I was recovering from the last drunk.

Oh man, what a life.

August252015

I am of the opinion that trying something different - so, for you, perhaps giving AA a committed try not just a couple of meetings - is a great idea after a relapse. Finding what DOES work this time, and making it the last, is what we are best off doing.

Glad you are here and hope you choose to stay with us, and more importantly, sober.

Dee74

I think anything is worth a try. You're essentially fighting for your life here.

You could try other meeting based approaches like SMART or Lifering too if you have meetings near you.

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HeadEast

Those first few days are rough. Stick with it and it slowly gets better.