I want to drink sooooooo bad
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But it will pass, if you ignore it long enough. Or better yet, talk back to it and tell it NO! Whatever you do, don't drink. Don't give in to the miserable cycle. 
It gets easier with more sober time. 
It gets easier with more sober time. 
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Join Date: Oct 2015
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I'm trying to convince myself that I don't have a problem. I've taken online alcoholism tests but none of them said what I wanted them to say: you're good to go...drink your face off tonight. The more I looked for the answer I wanted, the more I found the answer I needed....
It is not normal to think about alcohol all day.
Period.
It is not normal to think about alcohol all day.
Period.
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Great job coming here!! I used to drink to try to avoid my anxiety, but found that drinking truly made it worse. I had a found walking outdoors (which I know won't work at night) and also mindfulness to help deal with anxiety.
Try some breathing tonight, it should help. Play the tape through, you will feel so good waking up sober tomorrow morning.
You can do this.
Try some breathing tonight, it should help. Play the tape through, you will feel so good waking up sober tomorrow morning.
You can do this.
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Originally Posted by secretchord 
I'm glad I came here. I feel better already. It took a lot to make this post versus walk out the door and drink. There wasn't much holding me back and it's scary.
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Next time, check out this thread
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...sons-quit.html (Reasons to Quit)
Congrats on 41 days
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...sons-quit.html (Reasons to Quit)
Congrats on 41 days
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Join Date: Aug 2017
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I’m right with you tonight, Secret. Day 26 and first major craving I’ve had. I’ve even been to a couple concerts and bars and I was fine. All I can think about for the last 4 hours is drinking.
The girlfriend and I are in a huge fight, and she’s downstairs drinking her wine. We’ve barely said 2 words to each other all day. I’ve been reading my book and got my daughter to bed. Now it’s just me in the living room with my book and my thoughts.
I came here instead of going to the store. First post I see is yours.
Thanks for having the courage to post, it helps me tremendously, and you very likely have kept me from drinking tonight.
The girlfriend and I are in a huge fight, and she’s downstairs drinking her wine. We’ve barely said 2 words to each other all day. I’ve been reading my book and got my daughter to bed. Now it’s just me in the living room with my book and my thoughts.
I came here instead of going to the store. First post I see is yours.
Thanks for having the courage to post, it helps me tremendously, and you very likely have kept me from drinking tonight.
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Join Date: Oct 2015
Location: Minnesota
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Originally Posted by SaturatedSeize
I’m right with you tonight, Secret. Day 26 and first major craving I’ve had. I’ve even been to a couple concerts and bars and I was fine. All I can think about for the last 4 hours is drinking.
The girlfriend and I are in a huge fight, and she’s downstairs drinking her wine. We’ve barely said 2 words to each other all day. I’ve been reading my book and got my daughter to bed. Now it’s just me in the living room with my book and my thoughts.
I came here instead of going to the store. First post I see is yours.
Thanks for having the courage to post, it helps me tremendously, and you very likely have kept me from drinking tonight.
The girlfriend and I are in a huge fight, and she’s downstairs drinking her wine. We’ve barely said 2 words to each other all day. I’ve been reading my book and got my daughter to bed. Now it’s just me in the living room with my book and my thoughts.
I came here instead of going to the store. First post I see is yours.
Thanks for having the courage to post, it helps me tremendously, and you very likely have kept me from drinking tonight.
I see you're from Wisconsin too. It's hard to be sober in a state that promotes alcohol. Everywhere I turn there is alcohol. It's almost shameful to be sober and people treat you like a disease.
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Each time you resist the urge to drink, you get a bit stronger. 
It gets easier to say NO. Try practicing gratitude every day. That worked wonders for me, in my recovery and in my whole life.
https://www.nytimes.com/2015/11/22/o...pier.html?_r=0
It gets easier to say NO. Try practicing gratitude every day. That worked wonders for me, in my recovery and in my whole life. https://www.nytimes.com/2015/11/22/o...pier.html?_r=0
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Originally Posted by secretchord
I see you're from Wisconsin too. It's hard to be sober in a state that promotes alcohol. Everywhere I turn there is alcohol. It's almost shameful to be sober and people treat you like a disease.
My girlfriend is from Washington State and she is still shocked (3 years later) at how heavy we rely on alcohol here. You can’t go to a child’s weekend baseball tournament without kegs and beer tents.
And yet, it’s all my own excuse. The traps I’ve let myself fall into time and time again. I can be sober, I know sober people, lots of places that don’t have booze available.
My hardship lies on the “fun times” I had while drinking. They far surpass the bad. However the lasting consequences of the bad far surpass the lingering fun of the good. Rational vs. Emotional.
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Originally Posted by least
Try practicing gratitude every day. That worked wonders for me, in my recovery and in my whole life.
https://www.nytimes.com/2015/11/22/o...pier.html?_r=0
https://www.nytimes.com/2015/11/22/o...pier.html?_r=0
Excellent advice. What have I gained by sobriety?
Health. Confidence. New passions. Presence for my daughter. More energy. Goals. Respect. Pride. Money. Working on trust.
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Originally Posted by SaturatedSeize
It’s everywhere you turn. I live in one of the top 10 drinking cities in the nation (Wisconsin claims the majority of that list, HA!). I drank and partied for over 10 years. It’s been a really hard adjustment. From dating, to friends, to entertainment. The looks and critical comments you get as the sober one, it’s disgusting.
My girlfriend is from Washington State and she is still shocked (3 years later) at how heavy we rely on alcohol here. You can’t go to a child’s weekend baseball tournament without kegs and beer tents.
And yet, it’s all my own excuse. The traps I’ve let myself fall into time and time again. I can be sober, I know sober people, lots of places that don’t have booze available.
My hardship lies on the “fun times” I had while drinking. They far surpass the bad. However the lasting consequences of the bad far surpass the lingering fun of the good. Rational vs. Emotional.
Is it all really that much fun though? I was asking myself this question tonight. Driving drunk, puking, passing out? Is it fun to turn into a version of your self you loathe? I think the "fun" we are missing out on is a lie that our AV uses to trick us into drinking again. Think about it.
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Originally Posted by secretchord
Is it all really that much fun though? I was asking myself this question tonight. Driving drunk, puking, passing out? Is it fun to turn into a version of your self you loathe? I think the "fun" we are missing out on is a lie that our AV uses to trick us into drinking again. Think about it.
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