31 days today
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Join Date: Oct 2015
Location: Minnesota
Posts: 469
It hasn't been a walk in the park like I wanted. It's been work and sometimes I feel completely defeated. The urges really wear me down. When that happens I've been listening to some Christian music which helps. Sometimes I need to give myself a break and allow myself to not be strong and cry. I cry and I pray and then I feel better somehow.
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Join Date: May 2018
Location: Where I’ve longed to be all my life…..here, now.
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Great going!!!
Month one was tough for me.
I was obsessed with the thoughts of drinking/ not drinking.
I read here a lot, I slept a lot, I hated myself, I tried to forgive myself, I laid in bed a lot, I looked at myself very closely in the mirror a lot, —both figuratively and literally. I made a video of how I was feeling and what my goals were.
I googled abstaining from alcohol on YouTube, I googled liver disease, I googled how long it takes for a liver to heal, I googled brain damage from alcoholism.
Basically. ANYTHING to gain another minute, hour, day from that last drink...knowing the greater time distance the greater my success coupled with changes.
So proud of you.
Do you have a Big Plan?
Month one was tough for me.
I was obsessed with the thoughts of drinking/ not drinking.
I read here a lot, I slept a lot, I hated myself, I tried to forgive myself, I laid in bed a lot, I looked at myself very closely in the mirror a lot, —both figuratively and literally. I made a video of how I was feeling and what my goals were.
I googled abstaining from alcohol on YouTube, I googled liver disease, I googled how long it takes for a liver to heal, I googled brain damage from alcoholism.
Basically. ANYTHING to gain another minute, hour, day from that last drink...knowing the greater time distance the greater my success coupled with changes.
So proud of you.
Do you have a Big Plan?
Not shocked.
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