8 months - a sober man
8 months - a sober man
Been a little more than 8 months now since I had my last drink ever. Everything is better - life is full of suffering and mistakes and injustices big and small, but each and every aspect of my life is better in each and every single way.
Clarity, peace, confidence, strength, transcendence, joy, sleep, energy, power, calm and the lack of all the pain, anxiety, stress, self-hate, confusion...sobriety gifts all this.
What I'm enjoying now is how the people in my life are coming to either know me as a sober man or finding out that I don't drink anymore. I was with some colleagues who were all having a drink at the office and my partner, who only knows me as a non-drinker, made a joke about me being the only one who will be able to remember the night. It was funny but also gave me a deep feeling of satisfaction. It's a new role - being the reliable, competent and in control one. Pretty awesome actually.
Clarity, peace, confidence, strength, transcendence, joy, sleep, energy, power, calm and the lack of all the pain, anxiety, stress, self-hate, confusion...sobriety gifts all this.
What I'm enjoying now is how the people in my life are coming to either know me as a sober man or finding out that I don't drink anymore. I was with some colleagues who were all having a drink at the office and my partner, who only knows me as a non-drinker, made a joke about me being the only one who will be able to remember the night. It was funny but also gave me a deep feeling of satisfaction. It's a new role - being the reliable, competent and in control one. Pretty awesome actually.
More and more what I want to share, which I am very much enjoying, is the way that those around me are starting to view me and thereby treat me as a sober man. I'm the guy that doesn't drink. I'm the straight guy. It's a mild thrill to feel this way - in control, powerful, sure.
New people in my life are going to start off thinking of me as a non-drinker. Family and friends are coming round to it as well. Rather than being a source of embarrassment or awkwardness I find it to be a source of pride.
I'm the guy you can call at 3am. I'm the guy who shows up early. I'm the guy who remembers, follows through, doesn't smell like cheap vodka. Even on days where the excitement of sobriety dulls away, it's an inspiring thing to be this guy rather than his shadow opposite that I lived as for so long.
New people in my life are going to start off thinking of me as a non-drinker. Family and friends are coming round to it as well. Rather than being a source of embarrassment or awkwardness I find it to be a source of pride.
I'm the guy you can call at 3am. I'm the guy who shows up early. I'm the guy who remembers, follows through, doesn't smell like cheap vodka. Even on days where the excitement of sobriety dulls away, it's an inspiring thing to be this guy rather than his shadow opposite that I lived as for so long.
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I love your post and at nearly 8 months sober I can really identify with everything you have said.
I don't have a new partner but I have made some new friends in sobriety who have never seen me drink and that is awesome. My daughter who is now 6 doesnt seem to have any recollection or at least any bad recollection of me drinking and now she won't ever have to see her mummy drunk. I am becoming the mummy, daughtet, sibling and friend I always wanted to be now I have removed alcohol and entered recovery.
Well done again and thank you for sharing. Keep up the good work... It is so worth it isn't it? X x
I don't have a new partner but I have made some new friends in sobriety who have never seen me drink and that is awesome. My daughter who is now 6 doesnt seem to have any recollection or at least any bad recollection of me drinking and now she won't ever have to see her mummy drunk. I am becoming the mummy, daughtet, sibling and friend I always wanted to be now I have removed alcohol and entered recovery.
Well done again and thank you for sharing. Keep up the good work... It is so worth it isn't it? X x
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