secretchord

biminiblue

You can make this the last do-over.

Zanna

You are mourning the death of a relationship, albeit a totally destructive one, ie with alcohol. Your body is also running wild dealing with the withdrawals. The good news is, it will all pass soon and you'll be just fine
Hang in there - cry if you want to - it's great for healing.

secretchord

I know it will pass. I'm reading some of my old threads from the first time I quit and it helps to know I've been here before and it gets better. It just sucks today. I'm literally crying over EVERYTHING.

ScottFromWI

Yes, that's an unfortunately a very normal side effect of quitting, glad you are here talking things through. Alcohol is a CNS depressant drug, so when you take it a way your brain kind of goes into hyper mode - anxiety and mood swings are very, very common. The good thing though is that it's almost always temporary and crying doesn't cause hangovers ;-)

Zanna

You will I got through the early days by writing down everything I ws feeling - I kidded myself that one day I would write a booklet for others to help them through - I never did, but it did help Kind of gave what I was going through a purpose.
Hang in there !

secretchord

I just want to check myself out and sleep for a month or until I start to feel normal again.

secretchord

Listening to "Sober" by Demi Lovato.

I got no excuses
For all of these goodbyes
Call me when it's over
'Cause I'm dying inside
Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it's over
And myself has reappeared
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave
And I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely
Momma, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me
We've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
I'm sorry to my future love
For the man that left my bed
For making love the way I saved for you inside my head
And I'm sorry for the fans I lost
Who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model
But I'm only human
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave
And I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely
Momma, I'm so sorry I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me
We've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
I'm not sober anymore
I'm sorry that I'm here again
I promise I'll get help
It wasn't my intention
I'm sorry to myself

Zanna

Sleep sounds like a great idea - maybe not that long, but a good power nap always helps

MantaLady

Lovely as that song is I doubt it’s doing your mood and emotions any favours. I banned myself from listening to anything that would trigger sadness or negative feelings and only listened to uplifting and positive tracks xx

thomas11

Just try and get through today. Worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. Sleep well.

least

It is very normal in withdrawal to feel anxious and unsettled. It gets better tho, with continued sobriety. Hang on, it will get better.

orderfororder

Those first couple of days after quitting are always incredibly emotional for me. I've read things I've written in those days and it almost seems foreign to me, like somebody else wrote them. It's normal and it will pass. And even after that, you'll have highs and lows, but you will learn to wait them out because they always pass.

Hevyn

I was the same way - and I was so thankful & grateful when that phase subsided. Just another reminder of why we can't put ourselves through hell again.
I'm glad you're a day closer to feeling better, secretchord.

Dee74

Like others have said, an emoptional rollercoaster is pretty normal.

I dunno about you but it helped me to know it was part of the withdrawal process and not me going crazy

Try and keep yourself busy SC - even mundane things - cleaning etc - helped me - I needed to do 'normal' things.