Day 1 again
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Join Date: Jul 2015
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Day 1 again
This is likely my 100th day one. I was doing okay being sober but then thought one wont hurt. I've been have one bottle a night ever since lol not funny but sometimes you have to laugh. I downloaded a naked mind starting it tonight. Im back guys.
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Welcome back Toni. When you say that you thought “one wouldn’t hurt”, that tells me you probably had no plan in place. Or if you did perhaps you were not following it? Either way, I’m glad you came back....what are you going to do differently this time?
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I never laughed. I didn't think being filled with remorse, fear and anxiety. And the misery of having failed again was funny.
And I had more than a hundred day ones. It wasn't funny, it was pitiful.
I lived that way for a long time. Is this how you want to spend your life, constantly relapsing?
It doesn't get any better if you keep drinking. Believe me, it only gets worse.
DO you have a plan or idea of how you're going to get and stay sober?
Best to you, and may this be your last day one.
And I had more than a hundred day ones. It wasn't funny, it was pitiful.
I lived that way for a long time. Is this how you want to spend your life, constantly relapsing?
It doesn't get any better if you keep drinking. Believe me, it only gets worse.
DO you have a plan or idea of how you're going to get and stay sober?
Best to you, and may this be your last day one.
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Join Date: Apr 2018
Location: You know nothing Jon Snow - UK
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I have to agree with Ghostlight there. I never laughed about my drinking after the event, not at any point after either as for me there was nothing remotely amusing about it. I felt sick and tired, helpless, ashamed and full of guilt and self loathing.
Maybe look into A.A. or some other kind of external support. Get a real plan together as without one relapse is inevitable. Stopping drinking on self will means the ego is running the show and that doesn’t usually end well for people like us. I hope you can make this your last day one, it doesn’t have to be like this. Best of luck xx
Maybe look into A.A. or some other kind of external support. Get a real plan together as without one relapse is inevitable. Stopping drinking on self will means the ego is running the show and that doesn’t usually end well for people like us. I hope you can make this your last day one, it doesn’t have to be like this. Best of luck xx
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Toni, I'm glad you posted about what happened. I, too, thought I could hold it to 'one'. We now know that there is never 'one' - not for us. I almost lost my life proving I had no control. Congrats on your Day One - it really can be the last time this happens.
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