Overwhelmed but trying to stay positive
Overwhelmed but trying to stay positive
My sponsor says "we are maker of messes". I'm not sure if that is in the big book or not, but its true. I just need to vent, but in the same breath I'm trying to trust my Higher Power. I saw a post in another part of this forum about Acceptance on page 417 -419. It his me so hard. I have to believe that I'm right where I need to be in my life to fix it and get back on track. I always hear that God (if you believe in God) doesn't give us more than we can handle. Sometimes I'm not sure about that. Like I said I'm trying to keep the faith and stay motivated in all aspects. Drinking isn't on my mind these day other then the mess I created, and now trying to clean up. My earlier post I mentioned I was in the hospital. I was on a 72 hr legal hold because I tried to overdose on insulin. I just had enough of everything at that point. I'm glad I'm still here. I have another job interview in the morning since I lost my job a few weeks ago due to being in jail for 3 days. No call no shows. Whats the first thing I do...go drink and gamble some more after I got out. Hospital was a few days after that. I've been hitting meetings everyday since I left the hospital. 1 day at a time as the saying goes.
I always hear that God (if you believe in God) doesn't give us more than we can handle. Sometimes I'm not sure about that.
Chances are its all fixable with effort and time, and if not fixable you'll get through it.
Keep doing the next right thing , keep working on your recovery and keep facing up to the things you've done and things will get better
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