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10-25-2018, 05:34 PM

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Alynn

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Glad to be back again

So here I am again on a day 1. This chat helped me so much a couple of years ago. Looks like the last time I posted was January of 16’. I’m so happy to be back here today. So I had 2 1/2 years and decided to try a drink at a wedding in April. Boy did that go wrong. I knew it would. So since April I’ve had several nasty binges.

I just got home from a vacation and got black out drunk the whole time. I embarrassed myself and my family. Dealing with lots of shame, regrets, anxiety and depression today. Anyways, I’m so thankful to be back here today.

10-25-2018, 05:46 PM

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Hevyn

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Location: Upstate New York

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Hi Alynn - Great to see you back, but sorry for what you've been through.

I also had to have it proven to me - that I couldn't touch a drop. I experimented with moderation too many times - and never once was I able to control what I drank. When the first drink hit my system, all my promises to have 'one or two' went out the window. Life is so peaceful without it. Congrats on your determination to have a better life.

10-25-2018, 06:02 PM

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least

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Join Date: Mar 2008

Location: SF Bay area, CA

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Welcome home!

I hope you'll utilize the support and wisdom here to get and stay sober for good.

10-25-2018, 07:07 PM

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RUL23

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It truly is so much easier without the booze.

10-25-2018, 11:09 PM

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Alynn

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I just want to sleep. It’s 0200 and I’m up bawling again. I’m a few hours it will be time to get a kid ready for school and then chase a toddler around. I just want to stop thinking and sleep. I’m so freaking mad at myself.