Gerard52

If you don't drink you can only face yourself, your circumstances and feeling and emotions. That is not always comfortable.

I am experiencing a series of revelations inside over the last few weeks. I can see so clearly how my poor thinking and emotional control has really hindered me. I feel stupid in a lot of ways for not understanding earlier in my life. In some ways it seems I am growing very fast just now from a child like to adult realisation.

I went for years ploughing a furrow in stressful career just to have material security. The thing is I realise now it was stressful because of how I perceived it.

PS sorry about click bait title.


PPS 14 weeks

apollo986

I'm experiencing the same thoughts and emotions Gerard. It's a lot of information that we're now having to process. Hopefully it will level out soon.

Be123

tekink

Congrats on 14 weeks.

I had similar feelings. I started drinking at the university when I was 19 and I drank at every social interaction from then on, drinking daily by the time I was 22.

I was 44 the last time I drank alcohol and around four months after that I had the realization that I had no idea who I was. I hid behind the 19 year old kid and never let the man inside of me grow, or if he did grow I hid him away someplace where I didn't know who he was.

It was pretty profound. At first this was troubling to me but as I've gotten to know myself in the year+ since it's actually refreshing.