I love AA but thsats not the hole story it took Religion also
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I love AA but thsats not the hole story it took Religion also
Yes bare with me for i do not care about spelling periods slow my brain down. Yes the zero in AA me yes i'll give a story I scored 200 on IQ test but it's way higher then that eidetic memory not bragging but when I scored it how did I brain wrecked with medication poisning . Decanol savaged my body caused me to be in a costent state of pain till this very moment opiat addict also sober. Music in my Religion Islam i have to give it up today . I went back to a 25 day stay in a mental hospital but i was given clonazpam which i quit panic attack after another and another.2-3 weaks a just to get off solid alcohol took a war yes i have schizoaffective bipolar disorder AA I earned my seat in AA . Just want to tell every meeting is a state of love an ecasty . They said I was a lost cause Im way past losing drink obsession Im learning as fast as steadfast as I can. I willing to go threw hell i face a lot of stigma in AA for taki ng medication for schizoaffectivebipolar disorderi just want you to know i relized this buig arogant to the bone died a brave death yes i thought i could not get off clonazpam i did first day off alcohol june26 2018yes Im also an addict
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Dee74 I have looked all over Religions for a cure off Schizoaffective bipolar disorder to find Medication being honest blatently honest see I did really get the highest iq score . But once i was recovered of alcoholism yes i was I have been off benzos 2-3 weeks i do't even know my sobriety date an honest one to me doesn't involve benzos for they hit the same receptors as alcohol, It took way more effort I crave alcohol i'm in an all out war i barely made it through this day delusional yes i was how delusional was that. Yes Boleo I know i n real life got me into high end Spiritualism.owe Dee74 I have child like faith schizoaffective bipolar disorder alcoholism poker addiction opiates for a hangover turned in to an addict . i didn't want to admit i was an addict also i amone many addictions . Dee74 panic attacks from benzo and alcohol before that Boleo said it take greater effort he did not lie .The times me and Randy Benny and Boleo .See Randy did not know I chose to drink again after 3 1/2years sober desperate for a cure and to have a monster Spiritual Awakening ******* Buddhism telling a mentally insane at the time Boleo did not know .That when he told me to face all my fears i drank cause i had a fear of just drink three beers see thats insanity i unlocked an obsession so great i almost died to get back off alcohol and benzos again . AA has a fellowship of people Randy we laughed so much yes cI go to AA because I'm a real alcoholic using what program Occmans Razor which Bob taught me works so far . I could go on and on i miss randy and Boleo very Much the changed the course of a lost cause life
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I still place my faith in established medicine to help manage schizoaffective bipolar disorder, D.
Its still Gods/ Allah/Jehovahs work the way I see it, just through the hands of humankind.
I understand giving up benzoes - but not all meds are bad.
I have to take certain meds to maintain a quality of life.
It is what it is.
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Its still Gods/ Allah/Jehovahs work the way I see it, just through the hands of humankind.
I understand giving up benzoes - but not all meds are bad.
I have to take certain meds to maintain a quality of life.
It is what it is.
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Welcome back DS. I know you had been doing pretty well there for a while, I wouldn't worry about stigma - if you need the meds and they help you, listen to your doctor. It's great that you have a strong faith, but I'd echo what Dee says - you can still take worldly help and have a strong faith at the same time.
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it takes faith to get threw 17 mental hospitals testing posative for no alcohol or drugs . Yes I faced so much stigma in AA mood and mind altering porn gambling caffeine smoking vaping is. See i only been off clonazapam a benzo soliod alcohol yes it hits the same receptors as alcohol so i have a sobriety know AA about liquid alcohol period. But when Im honest i dont need to celebrate a sobriety date i say im dealing with panic attacks benzo withdraw not fun its hard .cant sleep makes me crave alcohol but just to get this far 100 percent effort if i was to drink again this is me with a huge war inside my head. its been a month of psychosis way stronger then the acid i took at 13 years old so tomorrow i'll get a 30 day token no i have anxiety from using the bottle to escape and not grow up. Pick nup my cross and start up the mountain
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25 days in a mental hospital get out knowing I'm so close then I quit benzo panic attacks for weeks if its not a bottom to rebuild on I don't know what could be. I'll quit starting threads.Im still not stable no panic attack today its only gonna get better
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