Jam13

Yesterday was hard, very hard. I was shaking inside, out, stomach in knots, nauseated, got virtually no sleep last night, night sweats but I was determined.
Today, got out my Celebrate Recovery workbooks, prayed, relaxed, felt some better....then the depression hit me like a ton of bricks this evening.
Sitting in my room crying, reading SR and finding strength in all of your stories.
I know I can never drink again.
I don’t want to. I just hate how addicted my body became to that poison that I am sick without it.
But I’m not giving in, I will get past this...in a few days I’ll feel much better.
I just needed to vent.
I hate this monster.
I just have to hang on and keep forging ahead.
I don’t EVER have to feel this way again.
Thank you all!

least

Yes, early recovery can be a rough ride for a while. But if you stay sober, it will get better.

Jam13

I was getting anxious about having to work tomorrow and how I will do.
I usually cry all the way home, anyway. My body was usually screaming for a drink 2 hours before quitting time and I was so anxious I couldn’t wait to get home to drink.
Praying my body heals quickly.

Atlast9999

Jam,

It sounds like you have a good plan: workbooks and SR. Ride it out-it gets better. I’m cheering you on!

Sober369

Hang in there Jam! Feel better fast. Lots of liquids, sleep when you can, reading recovery stuff, and feel the hope you have. Don't let your past dictate your future. Please let us know how you're doing!

Be123

Hi jam - in my experience it took 7 days and I began feeling physically much much better. They seem long in the moment but it’s not really a long time...

Hang in there. Yo can do 7 days for the reward of getting your life back

Dee74

You;re not alone Jam - we're here with you - you can do this!

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