Reading my first posts and reflecting
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Reading my first posts and reflecting
Hello kind people. Today i had a craving ...trigger stress . However i drank water and managed to stay on the right path. I am spending time here when i feel at risk. I read my old posts. How much i learnt through error and mistake and it is still very hard. There was good post that we want fast miracles ... forgetting it will take time until we feel better. If i cannot sleep i read here . I m grateful today that i stayed sober. Thank You SR x D
Great job Alishope. I found reading on SR to be extremely helpful in dispelling cravings. If they're bad cravings and I feel I might cave, rereading my past posts will usually drive them away. Of course, posting here first and waiting for a reply always works. .
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Thanks ... i read a lot today and keep on sober. Read stories of people who stopped in their forties or fifties loosing everything and sobriety helped them build up from scratch. My each relapse was not accepting changes and not understanding process properly. As i was so spoiled and had it all .... yes it took me couple of months to accept this golden girl s gone... but there is a hope for integrated sober wiser mature woman. So i lost it all ... some things through co dependence ... some for lack of awerness but most through alcohol... as alcohol made me ill... i could deal with work burn out ... why i had to drink ... ehhh it was easiest way and thought temporarly coping strategy. 3 years of my active binging ... sober ... lapse super healthy vicious wheel ..from 42 to 45 took toil and progressed so fast. .. So now when i reached some stage of acceptance , hope and commitment , I drink water if any silly thoughts comes . I remind myself why i quit and worst expierience and i might be broken but sober and respecting myself at least. Now i do staff on relapse prevention before relapse and 24 /7 . Today sober and read a lot here and even first time used chat . Thank you all.
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Congratulations on facing down the beast! I will join in the chorus and agree that when one thinks a little drink would be nice long 'bout now that posting here and reading -- reading what other people have/are struggling with and the misery of hellacious hangovers, guilt, regret, shame, etc., -- usually sets me back on track. I remember why I really and truly don't want to go down that road anymore. Good luck to you today. I will join you in not having a drink.
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Congratulations on facing down the beast! I will join in the chorus and agree that when one thinks a little drink would be nice long 'bout now that posting here and reading -- reading what other people have/are struggling with and the misery of hellacious hangovers, guilt, regret, shame, etc., -- usually sets me back on track. I remember why I really and truly don't want to go down that road anymore. Good luck to you today. I will join you in not having a drink.
Good for you allishope, it sounds like what you are doing is working well. Stress is a big trigger for me too and I find that I need to practice managing my stress everyday for it not to become overwhelming.
I'm a bit nervous to read over old posts but I've been thinking about it! Challenging denial with our own words. Thanks for posting xx
I'm a bit nervous to read over old posts but I've been thinking about it! Challenging denial with our own words. Thanks for posting xx
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Good for you allishope, it sounds like what you are doing is working well. Stress is a big trigger for me too and I find that I need to practice managing my stress everyday for it not to become overwhelming.
I'm a bit nervous to read over old posts but I've been thinking about it! Challenging denial with our own words. Thanks for posting xx
I'm a bit nervous to read over old posts but I've been thinking about it! Challenging denial with our own words. Thanks for posting xx
Hi Allishope and others
Monday morning here 06:00am
It seems the big problem with all of us , is how to manage stress.
Quote from a book I'm reading:
According to Gabor Mate,MD, in his book In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts
And then further on: This is why SR has become so important to me , because here we can connect and share and feel like part of a community/fellowship/family
Have a non-blue Monday xx
Monday morning here 06:00am
It seems the big problem with all of us , is how to manage stress.
Quote from a book I'm reading:
According to Gabor Mate,MD, in his book In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts
"people need three things for addiction to occur:
a susceptible organism, a drug with addictive potential
and stress"
a susceptible organism, a drug with addictive potential
and stress"
"There are countless stressors in lifee, and we can't avoid them all. But psychologist Bruce Alexander has found evidence that the most common stressor that causes addiction is the basic desire for connection, something many of us seem to be missing"
Have a non-blue Monday xx
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