Truthseeker11

Last night was rough, broken sleep, hot flashes and tachycardia with some vivid dreams thrown in. Took a look in the mirror this morning and saw what I’ve done to myself. The bloat, the sore abdomen, the dark circles, the off skin color. Alcohol is such a poison! And everyone was telling me how great I looked two weeks ago before I relapsed. And what did my relapse accomplish? Nothing at all, it wasn’t worth it. I’d have almost one month sobriety under my belt.

I’m feeling better, not as depressed. I think I’ll cut the naltrexone into quarters. Might take the edge of any cravings that might pop up while keeping my mood up a little more. Going to try to stay busy but rest when I need to. These days can be overwhelming. Wishing all others in early days continued success and have a great day to all.

Hevyn

Truth - of course you can do it again, and you will. You've learned something valuable. There's nothing in it for us - and never will be. It never brings the warm, pleasant feelings we're expecting. When we sober up all our troubles are still there - plus we've let ourselves down & have to recover once again. As you said, it is not worth it.

You're right to stay busy & distracted. You are armed with further knowledge about what it does to us - you won't be fooled again.

allishope73

I am with you you can do it we can do it xxx

Anna

I'm sorry for your relapse, but it's great that you are back here and seeking support. The best thing to do is to learn from what happened and make a plan so that it doesn't happen again. You definitely can do this!

August252015

Glad you made it back.

gypsytears

You can do it !

Dee74

I'm glad you're feeling better.

I have to add my usual word of caution tho - its always best to check with your Dr before changing your dose of meds.

Maybe check in with them next week?

D

Branches

Yes, you can do this again! Welcome back.

RanilGort

Well we're never too old to learn something new, even when we relapse, it can serve as great lessons. What I would suggest is to try and analyze what caused the relapse to occur, if you can sort of pin point the reason as to why it happened you can get a better understanding what too look out for, if it was based on triggers, certain events etc.

true sobriety is like embracing a completely different lifestyle and we'll have to be the ones to design what it'll mean and how it'll turn out.

So next time when the cravings hit, when the desire to drink comes, what are we going to do? Everything depends on our decision right then and there, and remember the more we learn to say no to our addiction, the better we can feel about ourselves and the stronger we'll become, it's like making sobriety a habit in and of itself. But those are just my ideas about it, maybe they can help you out, maybe they won't, but hopefully you'll figure out a way that will stick for you, because there's still hope for all of us!

Truthseeker11

Thank you all for your support! I will be starting over tomorrow. I didn’t go overboard today and I thank the medication for that because believe me, six minis spaced out is nothing to me. I wasn’t trying to numb myself. The pill makes me flat so I think I was seeking to feel something but right now I’m sober for the most part and just pissed that it’s just one more delay to looking and feeling my best. I don’t have the emotional turmoil of yesterday so I feel hopeful that tomorrow when I think of alcohol I’ll think “meh”. I’ll take my pill tomorrow. My doctor would be ok with me cutting it in quarters, whatever dose I find works best she would be good with. She’s out on maternity leave anyway. I want to see her in Sept when she comes back and I’ll have a month of sobriety under my belt. I know she’ll be so pleased. She is the rare doctor that truly cares. I did notice I wasn’t getting the same rush I normally do from the booze so I’m hopeful. I’m in fact in bed right now peaceful as can be. Very strange what I did today.

theVman31

Try and learn from your relapse.
Why did you crack after a month....
How to avoid it next time.

Truthseeker11

I do feel I learned something but tomorrow I will do some journaling to dig a little deeper. A toxic person was behind it though I am to blame. My own insecurities and self worth issues. Going to try posting here next time I want to drink.