90 Days
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90 Days
Here I am.
I can't quite believe I have made it to 90 days without a sip of alcohol. I feel like I've forgotten what it even feels like to be drunk.
What I haven't forgotten is how horrible I felt on day 1, 2 and those first few days in recovery.
My recovery case worker has commended me for how well I have done the past few months in getting to this point. I have finished the outpatient treatment so I am kind of on my own now.
I've lost a stone in weight since quitting. I feel sharper in mind and body. Too many benefits to list actually.
I've found myself romanticising drinking a bit recently though. I keep thinking, hmm, you know, you weren't THAT BAD, (despite me ending up in A&E after my last binge). Haha. I think actually I was that bad. Anyway, when I feel these thoughts, I acknowledge them and then let them pass, I think it's just a part of addiction. It may be something strange that triggers it, like seeing some people I know on Facebook at a party, everyone with a drink in their hand, and I think, ah it would be really nice just to get really drunk and let loose.
Or a friend calls me and asks 'SO this non drinking thing, are you planning to keep it up forever?' like he's expecting it's just a temporary thing...and he wants me to say, no don't worry, I'll be back drinking again next week.
Anyway I've come to far now to throw it all away and my life now to how it was 4 months ago, I've gone from such a negative to a positive, I will not and cannot go back to drinking, it is literally like putting a loaded gun to my head.
Life is so good sober. Sure it's not all perfect but I realise now you just don't need alcohol to numb bad stuff for you or to accentuate positives, you can enjoy everything to the full sober.
I can't quite believe I have made it to 90 days without a sip of alcohol. I feel like I've forgotten what it even feels like to be drunk.
What I haven't forgotten is how horrible I felt on day 1, 2 and those first few days in recovery.
My recovery case worker has commended me for how well I have done the past few months in getting to this point. I have finished the outpatient treatment so I am kind of on my own now.
I've lost a stone in weight since quitting. I feel sharper in mind and body. Too many benefits to list actually.
I've found myself romanticising drinking a bit recently though. I keep thinking, hmm, you know, you weren't THAT BAD, (despite me ending up in A&E after my last binge). Haha. I think actually I was that bad. Anyway, when I feel these thoughts, I acknowledge them and then let them pass, I think it's just a part of addiction. It may be something strange that triggers it, like seeing some people I know on Facebook at a party, everyone with a drink in their hand, and I think, ah it would be really nice just to get really drunk and let loose.
Or a friend calls me and asks 'SO this non drinking thing, are you planning to keep it up forever?' like he's expecting it's just a temporary thing...and he wants me to say, no don't worry, I'll be back drinking again next week.
Anyway I've come to far now to throw it all away and my life now to how it was 4 months ago, I've gone from such a negative to a positive, I will not and cannot go back to drinking, it is literally like putting a loaded gun to my head.
Life is so good sober. Sure it's not all perfect but I realise now you just don't need alcohol to numb bad stuff for you or to accentuate positives, you can enjoy everything to the full sober.
Congratulations! lm coming up on 90 days myself next week and l agree with everything you have said. Having a clearer mind is great, a healthier body, increased emotional stability and just getting a bit of joy back.
I am finding things starting to get a bit mundane though, what about you? It might just be all the rain at the moment (l usually workout outside).
Keep it up
I am finding things starting to get a bit mundane though, what about you? It might just be all the rain at the moment (l usually workout outside).
Keep it up
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some people just make a big deal out of it just because they want to. When I feel the person is making a big deal out if and basically just being annoying about it I just say some BS how many beers I drank a few days ago and taking a break and if they want to meet for a beer on Saturday morning at 9 or 10am and we can drink all day..... after that they usually forget and just think all is normal and continue on their merry way. Rightly or wrongly in the lies what I say to annoying people who make a big deal out of it but its my decision and nothing to do with them.
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Congratulations! lm coming up on 90 days myself next week and l agree with everything you have said. Having a clearer mind is great, a healthier body, increased emotional stability and just getting a bit of joy back.
I am finding things starting to get a bit mundane though, what about you? It might just be all the rain at the moment (l usually workout outside).
Keep it up
I am finding things starting to get a bit mundane though, what about you? It might just be all the rain at the moment (l usually workout outside).
Keep it up
I think people talk a lot about a pink cloud. Now I've come to 90 days I almost feel like, "Ok I've done it. Now what?". It almost felt like an anticlimax in a weird sort of way. Like the novelty of recovery wears off.
What I am choosing to do however is to throw myself even more into stimulating hobbies and passions to help fill my time and give me focus. Plus even more exercise and weights.
The thing is, alcohol had such a destructive hold over my life, I know that even if life is mundane a bit sometimes, it is a million times better than being hungover, obsessing about my next alcoholic drink, depression, anxiety, swollen stomach, GI problems, and all the other things alcohol caused....
Keep going
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Much more stable in my moods etc too
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Sounds like you have a lot of good ideas for keeping busy and enjoying life. Are you working a recovery plan as well? I know it is critical for me to have one so I can best handle the ups and downs of life, and to live my best life overall.
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