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Hi, New here
Hi,
I’m a 43 year old woman, and I’ve been struggling with alcohol abuse for almost 20 years.
I know that I’m destroying myself and people around me.
I have autoimmune issues and allergies, and so, if I drink too much, it can take me days to recover.
I have struggled with depression and complex ptsd, so it’s like, i feel I need to heal myself and get away from certain situations in my life in order to help myself get sober. Otherwise it feels like I need to drink, or else the pain I deal with would be unbearable.
I’m sorry to be so negative. I want to be honest, though. I’m scared about my health. My last check up was in feb. my liver was okay, but my cholesterol and sugars were high for the first time in my life.
I feel like a mess. I did go to AA about 10 years ago, I did almost 90 meetings in 90 days, and for a lot of reasons it just wasn’t for me. I get nervous about people trying to tell me it is the only way. But I do respect people who do get help from that.
Anyway, Im just not sure what to do. I’m ruinjng myself, I don’t feel well, and I don’t look well. I just would love to interact with others who are struggling like me. Thank you!
I’m a 43 year old woman, and I’ve been struggling with alcohol abuse for almost 20 years.
I know that I’m destroying myself and people around me.
I have autoimmune issues and allergies, and so, if I drink too much, it can take me days to recover.
I have struggled with depression and complex ptsd, so it’s like, i feel I need to heal myself and get away from certain situations in my life in order to help myself get sober. Otherwise it feels like I need to drink, or else the pain I deal with would be unbearable.
I’m sorry to be so negative. I want to be honest, though. I’m scared about my health. My last check up was in feb. my liver was okay, but my cholesterol and sugars were high for the first time in my life.
I feel like a mess. I did go to AA about 10 years ago, I did almost 90 meetings in 90 days, and for a lot of reasons it just wasn’t for me. I get nervous about people trying to tell me it is the only way. But I do respect people who do get help from that.
Anyway, Im just not sure what to do. I’m ruinjng myself, I don’t feel well, and I don’t look well. I just would love to interact with others who are struggling like me. Thank you!
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Originally Posted by camille075 
I did go to AA about 10 years ago, I did almost 90 meetings in 90 days, and for a lot of reasons it just wasn’t for me. I get nervous about people trying to tell me it is the only way. But I do respect people who do get help from that.
knuckleheads like me can say anything (wrong things) at meetings
no advice here only experience and if i do offer advice im making a mistake
im sober today and have a pretty good life because of my involvement in AA
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Welcome!! I’m an AA dabbler, and it has helped me. But I’m not a die hard, and other programs have helped me too. Look around and see what resonates. And congratulations!! You’ve taken a great step in your recovery just by joining here. Lots of great experience.
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“nowhere in the book does it say that AA is the only way
knuckleheads like me can say anything (wrong things) at meetings
no advice here only experience and if i do offer advice im making a mistake
im sober today and have a pretty good life because of my involvement in AA”
I was into Back to Basics and I was a thumper.
Like I said, that’s good for you if it works. I’m glad it works. It didn’t for me, it’s not for me. Thanks. And I honestly am here at this site for support. If I ever decide to go back, I’d talk to you about it. But as of now, absolutely not. I used to tell people exactly what you’re telling me. I don’t want it. Thank you.
knuckleheads like me can say anything (wrong things) at meetings
no advice here only experience and if i do offer advice im making a mistake
im sober today and have a pretty good life because of my involvement in AA”
I was into Back to Basics and I was a thumper.
Like I said, that’s good for you if it works. I’m glad it works. It didn’t for me, it’s not for me. Thanks. And I honestly am here at this site for support. If I ever decide to go back, I’d talk to you about it. But as of now, absolutely not. I used to tell people exactly what you’re telling me. I don’t want it. Thank you.
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Originally Posted by eyes99
Welcome!! I’m an AA dabbler, and it has helped me. But I’m not a die hard, and other programs have helped me too. Look around and see what resonates. And congratulations!! You’ve taken a great step in your recovery just by joining here. Lots of great experience.
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Welcome, Camille!
You will find lots of support and lots of different ways of getting and staying sober here. I think, if your motivation is there, you can do this. It's hard, but it's worth the effort. Taking action is key.
And, you are absolutely right about getting away from certain situations and people who are toxic in your life. This is so important.
You will find lots of support and lots of different ways of getting and staying sober here. I think, if your motivation is there, you can do this. It's hard, but it's worth the effort. Taking action is key.
And, you are absolutely right about getting away from certain situations and people who are toxic in your life. This is so important.
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Good to meet you, Camille. I was a broken down wreck when I first signed on to SR. The encouragement & non-judgmental advice I received here gave me the strength to change my life. I never felt alone again. We know you can do this.
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