Polaroid

After three hellish detoxes in a single month, and now after 2 months in rehab (again). And after last night. I thought I could moderate.

Nope.

Headaches, more BS. I can not win with alcohol in my life.

PAWS sucks, really. Depression, especially, is almost literally a killer.

But one thing I finally figured out at 35 is that; nope - it doesn't work. Alcohol needs to be cut out.

So. Okay. I'll do my best to try to enjoy life without it. Day 1.

/relapserant

BDTL

Atta boy! Proud of ya and you will be proud of yourself when you wake up the rest of your life with no hangovers. It really feels good to be sober so you have something valuable to focus on. You got this so get to work!

ChloeRose63

Day 1 is a new beginning. Now just take it one day at a time. Hope you have a good day and are feeling better. Glad you are here with us.

Tonymblue

Great decision. You can do it.

Nonsensical

Enjoying life is not a passive activity.

Go.
Get.
It.

If you do, you need to be prepared to have your wildest expectations exceeded.

You can do this.

Polaroid

Very true. At rehab I was always joined social activities like board games (cards, chess), team games like volley ball. I never took initiative, the humble person I am. But I was always lurking around for a game...

Truth be told, I don't really have any friends here at home, so it can get a lil bit flustersome, if that's even a word.

Not feeling too good today, but I guess my new "high" is waking up freshly, withouth a hangover.

Nonsensical

I don't have any friends in my house, either. I have to go where they are.

Within 10 miles of your house people are playing volleyball, chess, and cards right now. How can you find them?

Hevyn

Hi Polaroid. I had to come to that realization too - but I was much older. I'm so glad that at 35 you're seeing what needs to happen. I was a slow learner, & nearly lost my life trying to moderate.

Flustersome may not be a word, but it should be.

Dee74

Have you thought any about the nuts and bolts of how you might stay sober Polaroid?

D

brighterday1234

Sounds like you’ve now got a clear understanding of your alcoholic condition. Now into action; read the book AA (free online) and get to some meetings. Work multiple strategies including SR etc on top of that to keep moving forwards sober and trying to implement that crucial change in your behaviour, thoughts, and outlook on life.

D122y

Addiction is for life.

It has a double whammy....physical and mental.

Long after the physical subsides....maybe a month...the mental lasts....forever.

I have had 2 shots...less then 3 oz...in over 3 years and I still crave a bit.

Penn...of Penn and Teller...talked about alcohol addiction and said it is a decision not a disease.

Cancer is a disease, not alcohol addiction.

I must decide not to drink.

I have grown out of drinking.

Now, please God help me....SR help me.

I don't have to do this alone.

Thanks.