Mummyto2

Have family issues, all my fault I get on the phone and say some home truths to them

lessgravity

I've never heard the expression "home truths". Thank you for a new vocabulary word today.

That said, how are you? Staying sober?

Mummyto2

I haven't a clue to be honest

lessgravity

[QUOTE=Mummyto2;6950266]I haven't a clue to be honest[/QUOT

No clue about what?

The only thing to be clear on is not pouring the poison down your throat. Everything else is everything else.

Mummyto2

Yes I wish it was that easy, I did 18 days and then because weak mind I let people get in my head, YES they didn't pour it down my throat I did

biminiblue

I had to do a lot of work on that when I was newly sober. I Googled all kinds of methods for letting go and ignoring people and how to stay calm etc.

Whatever is bothering you there is another solution.

Mummyto2

Trying at the moment just to wait for the bank to shut, hubby has bank card and I am close to going to bank for money

biminiblue

What has you angry today? It's not just about the drink, you know you can stop. It's about creating a life where drinking isn't the answer.

August252015

We say "home truths" here in the South (US). And boy, I had to learn some - and stop telling others what theirs were....

I hope you don't drink today. A new plan....a better plan....yep, we all need one. It's possible to stop drinking, not go through the cycles you are sharing (familiar to the rest of us! you are NOT alone!) .... friends you can reach out to? AA meetings? Just don't drink TODAY and choose to keep repeating that day after day, using SR and, IME, IRL help.

Take care of yourself.

D122y

Mum,

I went to see a show last night in a very party section of town.

There were just a few really drunk folks...I saw maybe 2 or,3.

The rest seemed normalish. Not many people w drinks in their hand.

My energy levels have went up lately...they are supposed to be going down.

Diet change..I eliminated most sugar. Eating mainly protein and quality carbs.

Last night I filled up on sweet tasting sugar free drinks..diet coke and lemonade. Made me go to the bathroom 3 or 4 times. Weird.

For me...rather than say I quit drinking..I say I made a lifestyle change. It is a new chapter. A whole new book.

The sober book where i get healthy and live happily ever after.

Being a drunk is such a bad look.

It took some heavy suffering for about 2 years...off and on. But, these days...it is a whole new world.

A better world. I had to give my body and mind that time to heal.

Now I only have to fight the craves which I am pretty good at.

Now that I am educated, the craves are expected and dealt with.

But, we here all know...relapse can be a moment away.

Addict for life.

Hope this helps you.

Thanks for the therapy.

Mummyto2

Thanks, not angry just peed off with keep doing this to myself and feeling desperate for booze, I've made up my mind I'm not drinking today no matter how bad I feel

biminiblue

Oh, good. Well, feeling the need to tell someone a home truth sounded like you were upset with someone else.

None of my business...just giving you the opportunity to talk about it. You're a woman of few words.

Mummyto2

Yes I'm upset with someone who is supposed to be there for me no matter what, if my dad was alive he would never turn his back on me, so much for family

biminiblue

I find people will eventually disappoint me if I have expectations of them.

They have feet of clay, Mummy, and their own issues with which they have to deal. None of us are always perfect. I think we are each called to forgive and love each other - but it doesn't say, "And this is easy."

Mummyto2

Yeah I think my problem is I expect the same love I give them

entropy1964

Well I'm glad you aren't going to drink.

I try to separate all the BS in life from drinking. I know, that's not easy. And I have had it my head that my abstinence is somehow contingent upon all this other crap going on around me. It isn't. Period. And I had to own that 100%. When I try to make my drinking about how I feel, what other people are or aren't doing to me, my happiness, my sadness, whatever.....that is just my addict throwing obstacles in front of my recovery. And if I choose to make these 'things' obstacles to staying sober they will be. You see, those things are there whether I drink or not. Right? Drinking as a solution is an utter lie. 100%. I choose whether or not I believe.

Life is hard. It just is. People are not the solution to anything. Do we need people in our lives? Sure. But they are simply other people. They can't solve our problems. Ever. And if I'm honest I drank at other people and my disappointment in them more times than I can count. Wow. How does that make any sense at all?

Life has been challenging the hell out of me lately. And not small things, big things. I feel like crap. I'm irritated all the time. I'm just plain pissed of this morning. But drinking will do nothing to solve the problems. And I'll create bigger problems because I drank which will make currents challenges seem like nothing. I will get through this. And things will get better. They always do. And then they get worse. They always do. But each time I get through hard times sober, my coping skills get keener and keener.

Hang in there.

Mummyto2

Thanks

Mummyto2

Wish I could type more to thank you all, I just feel very weak right now

entropy1964

Just rest. Don't drink no matter what. Don't change your mind. Just say that over and over.

Mummyto2

I ain't drinking thanks