I'm not going to stop trying
12 Step Recovered Alcoholic
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 6,613
Glad you are back Mummy. My last drink was on a Saturday night some time, and I remember the next morning quite well. Something had changed.
I got up to answer the phone. It was an AA friend, Danny, checking to see how I was. I had been AWOL a few days. I told him about my drinking and I can still hear the gentle way he said "I thought that might happen" He is a cockney, so I remember the accent.
It was pretty amazing that he even called. No one else ever did from my drinking circle. Anyway, that last bender finally convinced me that I was a fully qualified candidate for alcoholics anonymous, and that it was going to take more than just a couple of AA meetings if I was to have any hope of recovery.
The program itself had already been explained to me prior to my first meeting. It's just that there were parts that I didn't like and would sooner avoid if I could. My last bender changed my thinking on that.
You probably heard that AA has promises but perhaps don't know that they have both good and bad promises. That is to say promises about the good things that will happen if I follow a certain course of action, and promises about the bad things that would happen if I didn't.
Experience had convinced me of the validity of the bad promises, so I really began to pay attention. The good promises didn't mean much at that point because they were mostly beyond my experience.
After talking to Danny I made it to the Sunday night meeting, and began to show some real commitment. I soon found a sponsor and got stated on the steps. My life began to change, and I got the feeling I was on the right track at last.
The other striking thing to me, looking back is that though there was much about the program I didn't like, I understood even less. It didn't matter. Maybe it was stupid of me not to challenge everything, but I followed suggestions as they became apparent to me, and the understanding came in every case as the result of the action.
The end result of trying a way other than my own, was permanent recovery, and a good life.
I got up to answer the phone. It was an AA friend, Danny, checking to see how I was. I had been AWOL a few days. I told him about my drinking and I can still hear the gentle way he said "I thought that might happen" He is a cockney, so I remember the accent.
It was pretty amazing that he even called. No one else ever did from my drinking circle. Anyway, that last bender finally convinced me that I was a fully qualified candidate for alcoholics anonymous, and that it was going to take more than just a couple of AA meetings if I was to have any hope of recovery.
The program itself had already been explained to me prior to my first meeting. It's just that there were parts that I didn't like and would sooner avoid if I could. My last bender changed my thinking on that.
You probably heard that AA has promises but perhaps don't know that they have both good and bad promises. That is to say promises about the good things that will happen if I follow a certain course of action, and promises about the bad things that would happen if I didn't.
Experience had convinced me of the validity of the bad promises, so I really began to pay attention. The good promises didn't mean much at that point because they were mostly beyond my experience.
After talking to Danny I made it to the Sunday night meeting, and began to show some real commitment. I soon found a sponsor and got stated on the steps. My life began to change, and I got the feeling I was on the right track at last.
The other striking thing to me, looking back is that though there was much about the program I didn't like, I understood even less. It didn't matter. Maybe it was stupid of me not to challenge everything, but I followed suggestions as they became apparent to me, and the understanding came in every case as the result of the action.
The end result of trying a way other than my own, was permanent recovery, and a good life.
Vietnam Vet
Join Date: Apr 2018
Location: Georgia
Posts: 421
Originally Posted by Gottalife 
Glad you are back Mummy. My last drink was on a Saturday night some time, and I remember the next morning quite well. Something had changed.
I got up to answer the phone. It was an AA friend, Danny, checking to see how I was. I had been AWOL a few days. I told him about my drinking and I can still hear the gentle way he said "I thought that might happen" He is a cockney, so I remember the accent.
It was pretty amazing that he even called. No one else ever did from my drinking circle. Anyway, that last bender finally convinced me that I was a fully qualified candidate for alcoholics anonymous, and that it was going to take more than just a couple of AA meetings if I was to have any hope of recovery.
The program itself had already been explained to me prior to my first meeting. It's just that there were parts that I didn't like and would sooner avoid if I could. My last bender changed my thinking on that.
You probably heard that AA has promises but perhaps don't know that they have both good and bad promises. That is to say promises about the good things that will happen if I follow a certain course of action, and promises about the bad things that would happen if I didn't.
Experience had convinced me of the validity of the bad promises, so I really began to pay attention. The good promises didn't mean much at that point because they were mostly beyond my experience.
After talking to Danny I made it to the Sunday night meeting, and began to show some real commitment. I soon found a sponsor and got stated on the steps. My life began to change, and I got the feeling I was on the right track at last.
The other striking thing to me, looking back is that though there was much about the program I didn't like, I understood even less. It didn't matter. Maybe it was stupid of me not to challenge everything, but I followed suggestions as they became apparent to me, and the understanding came in every case as the result of the action.
The end result of trying a way other than my own, was permanent recovery, and a good life.
I got up to answer the phone. It was an AA friend, Danny, checking to see how I was. I had been AWOL a few days. I told him about my drinking and I can still hear the gentle way he said "I thought that might happen" He is a cockney, so I remember the accent.
It was pretty amazing that he even called. No one else ever did from my drinking circle. Anyway, that last bender finally convinced me that I was a fully qualified candidate for alcoholics anonymous, and that it was going to take more than just a couple of AA meetings if I was to have any hope of recovery.
The program itself had already been explained to me prior to my first meeting. It's just that there were parts that I didn't like and would sooner avoid if I could. My last bender changed my thinking on that.
You probably heard that AA has promises but perhaps don't know that they have both good and bad promises. That is to say promises about the good things that will happen if I follow a certain course of action, and promises about the bad things that would happen if I didn't.
Experience had convinced me of the validity of the bad promises, so I really began to pay attention. The good promises didn't mean much at that point because they were mostly beyond my experience.
After talking to Danny I made it to the Sunday night meeting, and began to show some real commitment. I soon found a sponsor and got stated on the steps. My life began to change, and I got the feeling I was on the right track at last.
The other striking thing to me, looking back is that though there was much about the program I didn't like, I understood even less. It didn't matter. Maybe it was stupid of me not to challenge everything, but I followed suggestions as they became apparent to me, and the understanding came in every case as the result of the action.
The end result of trying a way other than my own, was permanent recovery, and a good life.
Great advice Mike and Mummy I like your never give up attitude because one day you are going to whup this thing. Keep believing and you can do it! 
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Join Date: Apr 2016
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Originally Posted by Mummyto2
I can't read my last post as I was drunk when I wrote it
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Posts: 2,913
Wonderful news! I have to agree I thought your posts in the other thread were fine. A little truncated maybe but you got some really good advice in response. If you get in a little better place consider reading the responses because they were very encouraging. Maybe when you need some encouragement. Hugs to you!! What’s on tap today and tomorrow for sober weekend?
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Florida., USA
Posts: 3,252
Good news Mummy! I'm glad you're back. I've had my share of relapses and during those times felt that I'm just not strong enough to continue to fight the AV, so I understand. I reckon most of us do. You had some great responses on your other thread Mummy and as Numblady suggests, maybe you'll want to read them. Lots of folks are in your corner and we're all here for you. You can do this. 
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