Mummyto2

Of another underlying issue, I don't understand, can't it just be that we have drank too much for too long and got addicted so there is no going back ?

tekink

Often times people drink to escape from feelings of X

tomsteve

you can believe that,mummy. no problem with it.
however,for many alcohol was/is only a symptom of underlying issues.

something to think about is something you typed a few years ago:
I have noticed the pattern now, guilt = booze = more guilt and insanity, I can't go back to that pls god

Mummyto2

Yes tomsteve perhaps I too have underlying issues that I haven't addressed yet

Mummyto2

It does make you look more at yourself and what you think and feel

Horn95

For me it was more of a mixed bag. I was drinking socially, and really enjoyed it. Now, I had been dealing with anxiety since childhood, and really became acute in college, and persisted for years. Panic attacks, etc. but during that time I very, very seldom turned to alcohol for comfort. And several years the anxiety leveled off.

But then about 10 years ago, I started noticing amped up anxiety after drinking, but again, I did not start drinking again to ease the anxiety.

It was not until the last 3 years or so did I really turn to alcohol to treat my anxiety, and it has snowballed since.

So NOW, my anxiety is worse than ever. I am sure made worse by years of alcohol abuse. So what may have been an “underlying issue”, it ain’t underlying no more!!

I think alcohol exacerbates underlyjng issues and makes them unmanageable.

DontRemember

Throughout the years I'd drink for a variety of reasons: Broken/'false' dreams("You can be whatever you want"=BS),heartbreak,financial loss,more heartbreak,more bad decisions,ect.. Eventually I'd drink just because...I was a drinker. That simple. In early sobriety/just starting trying to grasp the severity of my situation, I tried to mentally 'break it down',but looking back at where my 'thinking' was at; is I was trying to 'outsmart' the way I was drinking to,in my mind, be able to 'drink normally'. That was a waste of time. I just can no longer drink at all,,again.."that simple." Acceptance is key,as with most endings of any kind of relationship. The sooner you accept 'it' at face value,the sooner you can start moving on.

Mummyto2

I find after drinking I have terrible anxiety it's horrible

Dee74

Different people see different reasons for why they started drinking Mummyto2 - there's no one right, or wrong, answer

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tomsteve

its been quite a journey of self reflection- learning how i am who i am.