AV is already planning for this evening
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AV is already planning for this evening
Hi All,
I haven't been on here for a while because I simply just gave up for a few weeks. No black outs or anything just got back into that viscous cycle of going to the store, beating myself up because I'm back 2 days later, going to another store hoping I don't run into anyone that knows I was in rehab months ago and repeat. Well I haven't had a drink since Sunday. I feel good but I didn't drink because I couldn't. I didn't have any money...... now i do and my AV is ALREADY at it!!! I want too wake up like I did the past few days. Refreshed. I didn't even have trouble sleeping so that's not an issue. I hope I can make it through the day
I haven't been on here for a while because I simply just gave up for a few weeks. No black outs or anything just got back into that viscous cycle of going to the store, beating myself up because I'm back 2 days later, going to another store hoping I don't run into anyone that knows I was in rehab months ago and repeat. Well I haven't had a drink since Sunday. I feel good but I didn't drink because I couldn't. I didn't have any money...... now i do and my AV is ALREADY at it!!! I want too wake up like I did the past few days. Refreshed. I didn't even have trouble sleeping so that's not an issue. I hope I can make it through the day
I'm glad you're back!
My suggestion is to plan for this evening. Make a plan that will help you be distracted from the voice and drinking. Maybe plan something you don't usually do in the evening. Going out for a long walk could help. You can do this!
My suggestion is to plan for this evening. Make a plan that will help you be distracted from the voice and drinking. Maybe plan something you don't usually do in the evening. Going out for a long walk could help. You can do this!
keep in mind ...
its the 1st drink that gets us drunk not the 20th
we cant get drunk without that 1st drink
our choice is between miserable unhappy drunken drinking and all the consequences
or
not taking 1 drink
God bless
its the 1st drink that gets us drunk not the 20th
we cant get drunk without that 1st drink
our choice is between miserable unhappy drunken drinking and all the consequences
or
not taking 1 drink
God bless
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Maybe plan something you don't usually do in the evening. Going out for a long walk could help.
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It's was easy to get the concept of being sober in rehab. I was in a safe bubble (which was good) What I'm realizing now is that I was also out of my comfort zone but around people in the same situation. Came home to the same life. Gotta figure out how to get to more meetings. And change things up. I am in touch with some people from rehab and I feel like I just can't take this one step that will lead me to what sober people have.
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Thank you for that. I feel like I haven't gotten over that first time off not caving in after a few days. I'll keep posting
Also, there are thousands of speaker recovery share recordings. In the first month of my sobriety I always listened to these on my commute home. They kept me in the zone on my non-meeting days and meant that I arrived home with some resolve intact. This is where I get mine from... http://www.recoveryaudio.org
Recognising your AV for what it is really is a huge part of the battle. It's not gonna be quiet for some time yet, but you've recognised it, and are starting to believe that you realky dont have to be it's puppet, so you're doing great. Just because you can hear it, doesn't mean youre gonna act on it, so try to stay calm.
Hope you post again later. Stay in the middle of the lifeboat.
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