JackD89

It's been a week since I had a lapse in judgment and went on a 24-hour "birthday bender". I threw away nearly 5 months of sobriety because I thought I could handle drinking responsibly.

I certainly do enjoy being sober. I spent last Sunday in an incredibly anxious state, feeling my heart race. It was reminiscent of those first few days of when I got sober and I was having actual withdrawals.

I take refuge in knowing that I never, ever have to go through another day being hungover, another day of my chest feeling like it wants to rip open my skin and throw my face into a wall.

I get to know that when I feel sad or blue, it's not because I'm having withdrawals or because I blew an entire load of dopamine or serotonin in my brain from a weekend bender.

I know why I feel what I feel for the first time in years.

I am in control of my own life. I am in control of my own sobriety.

least

A week is a good start.

Dee74

'grats on the week Jack

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b0glerd69

Well done for getting back up, Jack. 5 months is a long time and you've achieved that and also learned that the notion of a big boozy night out is not a good idea for so many reasons. Best wishes.