16YearsDrunk

What a difference a week makes. This time last week I was in a bad place mentally. I've been on my anti depressants for almost a week and 15 days sober.

There's already a remarkable difference. I'm so much calmer. I haven't had an anger outburst for days. I'm in no way fixed, and I'm still very much broken, but I'm healing and I am starting to feel well again.

Depression sucks and I didn't even know how bad it was until last week. The low moods, the constant anger, the irrational thoughts, the alcoholism ... it's all related to depression and anxiety for me.

I'm determined to do whatever it takes to beat this and I am confident that I am not going back to alcohol ever again. I don't want it, or need it, in my life. I've had absolutely no desire to drink alcohol recently.

I highly recommend treatment to anyone going through anxiety or depression. It really helps and for many of us mental health is a huge factor in why we drink.

Mental health is like a weed. If you don't grab it at the root it will continue to grow and eventually take over your garden. You have to kill the root, and then maintain your garden to ensure they never return.

That's the same with alcohol. We don't need to poison ourselves anymore. It's not the answer. We're literally poisoning ourselves to mask deeper issues.

However hard it gets just hang in there. Each battle you win you gain strength and the battles get easier.

Sober369

Thanks, that was just what I needed to hear this morning.

Stronger2017

I’m really please to read things are improving mate!

wildflower70

Great job 16...

Isn't it great that we have so much time to focus on positive things when we put down the booze?
I never realized how much time I had devoted to drinking, until I stopped.

Congrats!

halvso

Way to go, 16!

gettingsmarter

My doc wanted t get on an antiD for a long tome. I fought her and fought her refusing to not to take it and be one of "those people". My anxiety flared up so bad I said screw it Ill try anything. Best decision I probably have ever made.
That's just me though.

Bumblebee2

I agree with everything!

Day 1 was terrible, withdrawals, nauseous, depressed, anxious, lack of motivation.
By day 7- I certainly wasn’t fixed- but I could get out of bed and eat food. Depression and anxiety decreased.

Also on meds prescribes by doc

Yixi

Hi 16 yrs - I'm so happy for you that you're feeling better now Yix x

bringmeback7693

Glad to hear you're feeling better. It is amazing to see how our world clears when we are sober. Sounds become louder, colors brighter. We are aware and present in our world more.

Take everything one day at a time

Buckley3

Amazing feeling when we get past the first few days and have enough of a clear head to look around isn't it?

I still - 100 days ish later - find myself shaking my head at just how stuck in a rut of crap I was. The difference between now and then is ridiculous.

I so don't miss drinking.

B

Jam13

What antidepressant are you on? I have struggled with anxiety, depression, insomnia my whole life.
Lexapro kinda worked for me in the past but I was drinking with it too.
I’m glad you’re feeling better & please keep posting. It helps to read encouragement