IWalkTheLine

life has now become unmanageable, things were going ok my addiction was hidden and I was still maintaining my job and relationships.

everything is now falling apart, I'm taking over 50 pills most days, I'm always Ill, never any money.

when I quit though the depression hits hard, and the sickness and aches. If I can just make it through the first 3 days i think i can do it.

last time I used was yesterday evening, I'm gonna be rattling by about 11am, this is day one, I hope it's the last.

Dee74

welcome back IWTL
Apart from SR, do you have other support?

D

IWalkTheLine

no, no one knows I have an addiction so it's tough

IWalkTheLine

I couldn't make it through today withdrawals were kicking in and I'm at work, I've booked tomorrow of gonna try cold turkey again and if not I'll try and wean myself off, then do the jump when I'm down to a couple a day.


I can't progress with my life I only care about living because of my dogs, but i know if I stopped the drugs I could create a life worth living.

Drugs keep me on a treadmill to nowhere, which just encourages me to use more. It's a vicious circle!

I make so many bad choices, I've lost all my friends when I stopped drinking, and now I'm losing all my confidence, I don't feel like I've got anything to give anyone, I have no family either, i do have a girlfriend and a job.

Not sure for how much longer.

IWalkTheLine

I have a doctor's appointment coming up dee but now sure I want everyone to know, don't know what sort of help he will give. I can't do meetings, they would be too hard to hide, I'm not the best liar

16YearsDrunk

You need to speak with your doctor. It's confidential, and he will not tell anybody else. That's the first step and they can offer you help i.e. medications and/or treatment.

I tried to lie and hide my addiction to alcohol from friends and family. I even told my doctor I rarely drank ... not sure he believed me. When I finally opened up it felt like a huge burden was off my shoulder and I found I had options and places to turn to.

Good luck on your recovery.

FreeOwl

My success in recover began when I moved from ‘I need to quit today’ - to ‘I want recovery today’.

You can do it